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| wierdo (profile) wrote, on 5-31-2003 at 10:51am | |
| Current mood: kinda tired Subject: I'm sorry...... |
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| Good morning. Ok, i was up late lastnight doing nothing, cause i was bored and had nothing to do. And i hate it when i am bored cause then it makes me think about alot of things. And all through out last night, when i was thinking, i just felt sorry. I am sorry to a few friends, cause i know i have done something to some of you that i should feel sorry for. Erika, I'm sorry for alot of things. I know right now things aren't going the greatest. Things are going ok with me and you, but they could be better i think. And the part that is keeping it from being better is me. I know lately i have been acting kinda.....strange i guess you could say. I know, sometimes it feels like i am spying on you in class, or in the computer lab, or at stacy's house. Sometimes it feels like i can't trust you. I'm sorry to make you feel like that. I just need to stop being so uptight and stop being a pansy about everything. Erika, think of it this way, if i really didn't trust you, i would be like calling stacy's house and seeing what you are doing or passing by every one of your classes to make sure your not flirting around or something. I'm not trying to act like a bitch, but thats probably what it would be like if i really didn't trust you. But i do trust you, with everything. And i am going to try and show it more often now. I know i can trust you. I know you wouldn't hurt me in anyway possible. And i trust Ryan, not as much you, but still, i have trust for Ryan. Its just harder with him cause i know him real well, but like you said, he wouldn't do anything to hurt me either. And i'm sorry for always asking whats wrong, or why are you mad, or are you mad, or anything like that. I only ask cause i know something is wrong and i want to know what it is. Cause half the time it probably has to do with me. I just want you and I to be happy together. I want us to have some fun, well we do have fun, but more fun. This summer we will have alot of fun. And i want us to work past anything so we have no worries about anything and we can have fun with no problem. I'm not trying to be down on myself Erika, i know you don't like it when i am. I love you with everything i have to give. And again, i'm sorry sweetie. Ok, and for stacy now. Stacy, i'm sorry that i have been acting strange and in a bitchy mood lately around you. I have had alot on my mind lately. I was so stressed out about baseball. Stressed out about taking drivers training and passing the road test and everything. I have been stressed out about this thing with me and Erika also. I know i keep asking you questions about things, like if anything was said about me and if i did something wrong or what. I don't need to do that. What you and Erika talk about is your business. If i really had to know then one of you could tell me. I deserve what ever i have coming toward me. So, i'm sorry stacy. I want to keep you as a friend. I knew you a w hile ago, then stopped talking for like what 6 years. And now i met you all over again through Erika. And i'm gald i did, your a great friend and a great person to talk to. I love ya girl, i don't wanna lose a good friend. Ok, so i'm sorry to both of you. I know i can be a better person, and i am trying to be a better person. So hopefully later on you see some imporvements in me. Ok, well i gotta go now. I love you guys! Well....stacy as a friend and Erika as my princess! (lol sorry stacy!) |
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shorty | 05-31-03 11:46am Thanks for everything you said.. but you really shouldnt put things like that in here..... people dont need to be knowing whats going on with us. |
pacificsweetie8 | 05-31-03 5:30pm thanks kevin, dont worry about it. if i was in your situation I'd pry be doing the same thing, well Im talking to ya now, so see ya! |