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| musicalbabe (profile) wrote, on 6-2-2003 at 9:23pm | |
| Current mood: crappy Music: Rocky Horror Picture Show-There's A Light Subject: i need to post and let out my anger/frustration/helplessness |
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| okay so here's the weekend in a nutshell: friday: over to ni's house for a sleepover because my mom is flying down to san diego to drive with brian and his car to my house. we umm...do fun stuff instead of studying. saturday: sleep in. have more fun w/ a little studying added in. get home late and get yelled at by mother because my hair isn't dry for the dinner. 4:30- at church reporting for duty. time for some fun/work/flirting/freaking out. man, good times. i work my ass off (while flirting like a mofo in the meantime with andrew and pointing out hot mainstreet guys to annie) and killing my feet. we do this for like...well from 4:30-11:30. so like 7 hours. i am not shitting you. this was actually fun tho. me and andrew had the head table so we served bob and the family. and i got to stand with andrew and flirt like a mofo. FUN! and for a moment there i thought he just might've been flirting back... sunday: holy fuck i'm tired. last night was long and tiring. great, now i get to listen to my stupid gayass sunday school teachers yell at us for being kids. it wasn't SO bad. we got to talk a lot and we needed that. then off to church for bob's last sermon. it was fine until he ended with a really moving thing that we always say that i just can't remember right now. then the waterworks came on. i cried pretty much through the rest of the service. thank god for the choir cuz i cud see that they were crying too. i thought i was the only one cuz the ppl in the church didn't seem to be touched. STUPID BASTARDS HOW CAN YOU NOT CRY? OUR PASTOR IS LEAVING! HE IS NEVER PREACHING FOR US AGAIN! WHY THE FUCK ARE YOU NOT COMPLETELY DEVESTATED? HE'S LIKE OUR FATHER, OUR CONNECTION WITH GOD, OUR MENTOR. AND HE'S LEAVING. AND YOU'RE NOT CRYING? JEE, WHAT GREAT METHODISTS YOU ALL ARE! so much for the congregation. as a youth, i was touched. maybe i'm just like that. but it wasn't a happy service. then home for some more ummm 'studying'. as much as nicole and i are smart and responsible individuals, together we don't get things done. so now i'm still screwed for the history test. but its all my fault i basically copied nicole's entire map anyway. and ya know what? I DONT FUCKING CARE! MY LIFE IS SHIT IN EVERY WAY AND I DONT NEED SOMETHING ELSE ON TOP OF MY CRAZYASS LIFE THAT HAS DELT ME ENOUGH BLOWS ALREADY! SO FUCK YOU, MR HAYMAN CUZ I CAN'T TAKE ANOTHER ONE OF YOUR TESTS RIGHT NOW AND I'M NOT GOING TO GET A GOOD GRADE! I'M NOT THE PERFECT STRAIT-A STUDENT U THINK I AM, OKAY? i'm a kid too. but hey, tell that to meredith dodd the resident youth BITCH. choir. fun. couldnt control myself when andrew and thomas sung their solo's...had to laugh. so much for alto harmony when they sing cuz i just can't do it. i'm too overcome with AHHH UR SOO SEXY feelings. youth group dinner. porno and meanstreet barbies created. MUCHO FUN! LOOK OUT METEL, WE'VE GOT UR NEXT LINE OF PORNO BARBIES ALL SET OUT! and they're based on real ppl too... lets just say one gets erections all the time, i just say no and slap therapists, we have a resident pizza delivery guy that walks into our orgy...or what there is of it because i'm slapping guys left and right, and a stripper. ooo yeah. we are sooo creative. youth group. hella sad. our pastor is FUCKING LEAVING! we had a goodbye party for him which kinda bombed because we hadn't planned it that well and he had to leave early. o well. then we started to have a NICE conversation about change and how this was gonna effect our lives and how to be nice to the new pastor and all but then DUN DUN DUN MEREDITH BECOMES RESIDENT BITCH OF THE YOUTH GROUP! KA-BAMMM! we are all suddenly insulted and ridiculed for 30 minutes strait about how we don't work hard enough, have so much potential, but are lazy and let the youth directors run things. NOW WHY THE FUCK DID SHE BRING THIS UP NOW? WE'RE ALL LIKE EMOTIONALLY FUCKED UP BECAUSE OUR PASTOR IS LEAVING AND NOW SHE'S TELLIN US WE'RE FAILURES! her word, not mine. the youth group as a whole is an official failure. we just can't do anything. MY ASS, MEREDITH! WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU THINKING?? we are all talented youth with LIVES and SCHOOL GRADES TO ACHIEVE and VOLUNTEER HOURS TO BE SERVED and YOU THINK WE'RE FAILURES AND LAZY? have you been to church? have you seen us sing, read prayers, serve as ushers, do communion, and WORK OUR ASSES OFF FOR THE CHURCH? apparently she hasn't seen the effort we put into making our church a good place. because...WE'RE FAILURES!! so mainly all i have to say is FUCK YOU MEREDITH DODD!! and another thing: MY LIFE HAS GOTTEN SO CRAZY THIS WEEKEND YOU WOULDN'T FUCKING BELIEVE IT. BRIAN HAS MOVED IN FOR GOOD. AND THATS NOT AN EASY THING TO ADJUST TO. I'M SORRY, BUT I CAN'T JUST GO ON LIKE ITS NOTHING. its NOT nothing. it'll never be nothing. and yet i'm still being handed finals and tests and being accused of being lazy and a failure. does life do this to me on purpose? FUCK YOU, LIFE!! you certainly gave ME a raping this year... |
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iwish2bemilkywhite | 06-02-03 12:47am haha yeah good times until merebitch had to come do her thing. i think we need sexy thomas and sexy andrew to come and just like cuddle us till the end of time and make everything better. yeah. that's what needs to happen right now. anyway, call me if you ever need to talk about the whole brian bitcht thing. ok? ok. AND WE ARE GOING TO PASS THE HISTORY TEST!! |