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| cait0880 (profile) wrote, on 6-2-2003 at 9:45pm | |
| Music: SUBLIME! Subject: My family, are crazy |
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| Anyways my mom is being total stupid today. She wouldnt get off the computer for me and now i didnt finish my english essay, so i said fuck it. I was standing behind her saying "get off mom...please!" and i just wanted to punch her in the back of the head so hard. I went to a couple times but just slamed my fist into my hand hard, to get some rage out. I went and sat with my dad, scream at her to get off. Alot of angry built up so i grabed my arm, so hard that i think i brushed it. Im such an angry little girl. I dont get it, its not for show or for laughts. I really cant controll it. I need to get my rage out in a better way. Maybe ill just beat the shit out of someone useless, someone who i really hate and is hated by everyone. Im not going to say any names but i have a few people in mind. I feel like i have so many problems. Im useless, not good at a thing. Im an ugly short and stupid girl. I have no one and i never smile. I feel total betrayed by my boyfriend who i thought i loved, and hope i can forgive. I know trusting someone is very important in a relationship, but isnt forgiveness equaly or more important? Is he past forgiveness? Are the lie to much? I dont know what to think anymore. I really need people to tell me what they think. Mostly i total hate being told how to think or how other people think but for once id love to know what other people would do. Is cheating somethign you forgive and forget. Is lying okay if it was only ment to keep you and who ever together? Someone show me the way. I need help. Im lost here.... *Cait* |
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| Anonymous | 06-03-03 3:13pm Cait, it's all up to you. Cheating is something I would forgive & forget, only because it happens, it happens in every relationship at this age, I know I've cheated on boyfriends but I love them more than I loved myself, it was just a mistake. The lying thing, that's also your call. I don't tolerate lying, I have like a phobia of lies, hah, but if it's a little lie that Kris said, only to not hurt you, maybe it's okay. You really have to decide for yourself, decide if it's worth it.
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| cait0880 | Re:, 06-03-03 3:17pm Thanks Jill i know i should forgive and forget. Its the trusting part im afraid off but thanks....ill work on the smiles |