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| thedarkerside (profile) wrote, on 6-11-2003 at 8:32pm | |
| Current mood: okayyyy Music: none- watchin Fame Subject: Ahh....sigh....ahhh....sigh...yeahhhh |
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| Summer has been boring so far kindof. I've cleaned everyday. My mom got home from Meijer and her doctors appointment w/ my sister and she says to me "what have you done today" me"nothing" mom"well you could have atleast done something...now go clean the bathroom again and start getting the kitchen clean. You arent going online until you get laundry done". Its never ending. Summer vacations are ment for cleaning. My parents are thinging about going on a vacation without my sister and I to Niagara Falls. THANK GOD. I dont know how long they will be gone..but we will have the house to ourselves and we can do whatever we want. I would actually feel freedom for once but it would eventually slip through my fingers and get sucked out the door when they come back. Ah...How I long to finally figure out the missing part of me. I always feel as if where ever I go..no matter what I'm doing whether its something I love or something I hate...I always stop and i feel a sudden sense of emptiness like theres something missing...somethin thats eating away at me but I just ..cant figure it out. Its self exceptance..but theres more to it. More than anyone including myself would ever know. I'll continue to be not completely figured out even to myself. Life is complicated thats for sure. I want something to happen that will make me smile and possibly forget about my troubles for a long amount of time. I'm still waiting for that "thing" to come. My horoscope says Fathers Day will be one of my lucky days. I hope so. I donno If i'm going to go to start of summer yet. I want to..but again..that part of me pulls back..the anti social amy. I want my reportcard damnit. I want to see how i did on my exams. It better come tomorrow or i'll kill the mail lady. Its always the sneaky mail lady damnit. i'm out. |
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sheels21489 | 06-11-03 10:06pm I want my report card too.
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Duvie11889 | Hi, 06-12-03 1:03pm I got a C on my math exam. On the Wednesday went back to ask him what i got. I'm crap. |