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| daisymae (profile) wrote, on 6-15-2003 at 3:37pm | |
| Current mood: Invisible Music: The Ataris |
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| I don't feel much like writing bu think I should. I don't want to go back to Chicago now, I don't know why. I feel like theres just a lot of shit I'm going to have to deal with. I don't want to hurt people or to get hurt. And it seems like whenever I go there thats exactly what happens. I know im probvably just beign paranoid but still theres that lingering feeling. I just want everythign to be normal again, even though I can't say when the last time that was. I want so much that i already have, its just not perfect enough. Gosh I am such a little brat, I don't know when that happened. Oh well, I will just always want what i already have and not realize it. Poem Let me love you let me hold you . Don't stop the world for me, I don't deserve anything from you. I wanted to be loved and you gave it to me but I didn't want you. I stand helplessly shaking from the cold i made myself. It never works out for me, I never get the point. I am lost in a cloud of death and loss. How is it I never loved you but you gave me your soul? I wanted to love you but made it impossible. Nothing wroks out, nothing, no one can change it. You tried, I falied. This wasn't meant to be, it never is for me. I hate myself for making beleive. I wanted it to much to let myself unfold. I wanted you but didn't know why. I lost everythign in myself. I stand smiling and slowly dying inside as you hold me tighter then I know. |
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xxsliderxx | 06-16-03 7:39pm i know that i already told u emily, but maybe i should go public with this lol... im sorry i was bein a big bitch and i blew things out of proportion and i dunno i became really bitchy and mean... sorry... im REALLY sorry... even to linsey whom i was really mean to and im sorry to everyone i offended...! *slider* |