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| noonecanknow (profile) wrote, on 6-16-2003 at 11:23pm | |
| Subject: not a day |
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| not a day has gone by where i haven't thought about him, what was, and what could have been. i try not to let it get to me. just when i thought i was over him he came back into my life, only to leave again. its for the better i guess. i'm just sick of getting played. it was my mistake to think i could have meant something to him. scary thing is i had a dream about him. "it was a late evening. the open house tent was still there. my grandma and grandpa were coming over, my parents were going to leave with them. i was ready to go to bed. and then my dad said someone was here, i looked out the window and there he was, his car and all. i was in shock i couldn't believe he came, because of how i talked to him the last time and the fact that he had a girlfriend. i was sitting on the loveseat in the panio room, i had a blanket. he kept getting close to me, i kept moving away, in my mind i was thinking of what a jerk he is, how he has a girlfriend. he tried to kiss me a few times, then he kissed my stomach, he always had a stomach fedish. i asked him why he was doing what he was even though he had a girl friend. he said it didn't work out. i wasn't really surprised. he kept trying to hold me, and kiss me, but i wouldn't really let him. i kept thinking about what he did, and how ally would kill me if i did anything. i told him the thing about ally, he didn't seem to care much, then i woke up." ally i know you'll read this, and the reason you would "kill me" is because you had told me not to let him come back. i dont think i would, even if he tried, he would have to earn my confidence back first. |
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allyson | 06-17-03 2:53pm Very good... I'm proud. Don't give in. Not like you did in the car with jay and I... after you promised. |
| noonecanknow | Re:, 06-17-03 3:45pm sorry about that |
| allyson | Re: Re:, 06-17-03 3:57pm It's alright, just don't do it again... |