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| fadingintoblue (profile) wrote, on 6-17-2003 at 9:37pm | |
| Current mood: dorky Music: teddy goldstein Subject: hmm |
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| i had my gym final today, and i got a c. the final was divided into five parts, and i got a c on four parts, and an a on one part (sit and reach, of course. i might not be athletic, but i'm still massively flexible). it was over pretty quickly though, so amanda, jenna, and i sat down by the bleachers to talk for the last fourty-five minutes or so. i felt kinda weird. jenna and amanda are both in three of my classes each. i've been friendly with amanda since last year, and friendly with jenna since the first day of english class. but i still don't feel comfortable with them. i still feel like i'm kinda intruding on them, even though i know i'm not. part of it is because they're both from somerville and grew up together. another part of it, i think, is that i can't talk about guys with them (what am i supposed to say "yeah, i had a crush on this guy a few months ago. it lasted about a week before dissapating into dust. but i have this huge crush on cait.."?). also, amanda and i have had a few arguments over the year about me being an atheist and about feminism. and i always feel like such an oaf around them. i have no idea why they keep me around, they're both more intelligent and wittier than i am. but despite all this, amanda asked me if i could come over monday to play daughters of the dutch revolution (also known as ddr or dance dance revolution). i can't make it, but i left her my email so we could stay in touch. i felt too weird to ask jenna if she wanted my email too. why do i always feel so weird around people? sophie (friend of amanda, jenna, and me i guess, in english class with all of us) invited me to her end of school party, but i'm not sure if i'm going to go. i always feel really akward at parties of all types. i know amanda and jenna will be there, along with some people i'm friendly with (though not quite friends), but i'm sure everyone else going knows each other better, and i'm afraid i'll be in the way. i still don't know where sophie lives, but she said she'd give me directions. if she doesn't bring it up on thursday (which is the next time i'll see her), i don't know if i'll mention it. even if she does bring it up, i might claim to be "busy." i don't want to do that (i don't want her to think i don't like her), but i don't know if i can make myself take a chance like this. | |
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kiwi | Mood, 07-26-03 11:39am You called your mood dorky. You called yourself dorky but you dislike it when I call you a dork jokeingly Gaaa |