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| sportsgirl (profile) wrote, on 6-17-2003 at 9:18pm | |
| Current mood: angry Subject: DEATH!!!!!! |
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| Ok future warning to anybody who does not want to be apart of what i will be feeling. Tomorrow if you dont want to be around someone who is sad or mad or depressed then you might not want to talk to me. Just warning to you all! Tomorrow it will be 1 year from when my grandmother died! Now see i am a sensible person well for the most part any how. And i know when the time comes for anybody then it comes and what is done is done right. But i have not had the chance to be sad one time after or during her death. i was not aloud to be sad for the fact that i had to be strong for my mom and my grandfather and all the people who need comfort but the one time i started to cry i got yelled at by my dad. He told me i had to leave the funeral and not come back for the second service i still dont ever forgive him for that. But yeah... I hate doctors it is there fault she is dead. She had Cancer for 2 years and they never found it! I mean 2 years! They found it when it ended up spreading to the brain. And then there is not hope then is there. Some times my mom is so sad and takes it out on me. how her mom is dead and stuff like that. sometimes i wish i could have been the one with the cancer instead of her then my mom could be happy again. But yeah And now my brother he is always in the hands of doctors and they could end up killing him to anyday. Doctors are like over paid hit men. That is what i think anyway. But if my brother ends up dead i will be so sad for the fact that my brother cant die. He is my resposiblity and... sorry anyway not trying to be all sad here but i hate doctors i think they are just people who get paid for giving people bad news and killing people. That is what a doctor is. Ok yeah so here i am taking it out on this journal thing i am sorry. Ill end the entery now.. i think you get the pic why people might not want to talk to me i dont want to put my troubles or worries on you. I dont have time to worry about me i have to worry about everybody else. Mostly my mom i know she will be sad tomorrow so i have to be stronge for my family. I got to make sure i dont cry. Crying is weak and that is somthing i cant do. So any of you have any problems i can help with. Keep me busy. |
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Shinigami | 06-18-03 1:27am Crying is not weak. I would know. And if you want to "keep busy" email me tomorrow before 1. |
Angel_Bob | Re:, 06-18-03 11:45am I agree with Jackie, we all know. That was evil of your dad... |
sportsgirl | 06-18-03 6:39pm yeah it was not good of my dad to do that i still dont forgive him and i dought i ever will
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| starstruck | 06-18-03 9:19pm Doctors do suck! I hate them...I still shudder every time I think of mine. ("Omg for the last time I have never had any potatoes in my ears! Or at least not since I was 6!") See what he does to me? Anyway, forgiveness is a choice and not responsibility. And if you never want to make the choice, so be it. I deal with death so much differently...Actually it doesn't bother me at all. I hope your bro's alright and I wish I could have been there for you today. I don't mind ppl taking out their probs on me as long as they're my friend...Gives me a smack in the face that there are bad things that happen to other ppl and not to me. Luv you. |