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cait0880 (profile) wrote,
on 6-23-2003 at 5:08pm
lets see yesterday louis came wit me to a family party but thats not what i want to write about
before online russ said something to me when i was away it made me feel kinda bad in a way but i dont really understand how he can say what he did...he said he doesnt understand how i can just forget kris

iFoLLoWbAdRoNaLd: u were scared kris would forget u and now ur forgetting him
iFoLLoWbAdRoNaLd: thatts fucked up

I didnt forget kris...kris betrayed me and did me wrong. he lied to me and cheated on me and our whole relationship was a based on drugs its seams. i didnt forget him everyone knows that he is still on my mind. i still care about him but im not in love with kris because i dont want to be...i dotn want to get hurt again and i dont want to ever feel the way kris made me feel again. i just want to move on and try and be happy and i dont understand what im doing wrong...someone please tell me ...am i rong? should i still be hanging onto the thought that maybe someday kris will come back and love me and will be a new person? When you love someone you dont want them to change right? then i must not love kris cuz i would only want him back if he changed alot of things about him...and that wouldnt be love...and sure its good to forgive and forget..but do people reallly ever forget...and i could never trust kris again oh fuck this shit i was happy fucking happy now russ has me thinking im rong...someone please tell me what is wrong with me...am i rong?
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Anonymous

06-26-03 1:20am

You're right about moving on.

But, you can love someone and still want them to change. The only thing you can't do is TRY to change someone, or want them to change because YOU want them to change. If you want them to change for you, you probably don't love him. But if you want Kris to change for the better, and to better himself and be happy, than you may love him.

It's good you're moving on though, you're not forgetting about him you're just not getting ridiculously hung up on him. That's good. : )

-jillian.

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Anonymous

Re:, 06-26-03 10:45am

Thanks Jill..your good with the words hehe

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