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| cait0880 (profile) wrote, on 6-26-2003 at 12:42pm | |
| Subject: I would like to post this comment to allys journal comment as an entry rahter then a reply to her comment |
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| Well this is to Ally but also something that ive been thinking about lately. I feel as if maybe i only loved kris because aftering spending so much time with kris, i felt maybe i have to love kris. I felt like why would i spend all these months and have sex with someone who i didnt truely love, when kris left i felt lost as if something was misssing. Then i found friends and found people who hated kris and gave me great reasons to hate him myself. im usely not one to change how i feel because other people feel that way but this really is a fact Kris is a shithead. he didnt treat me well and proably only used me for god knows what. it could have been sex. drugs . or just that for once someone seamed to care about him. i just think that i loved him because i guess i thought i had to, and i bet he did the same. Love is not a word to throw around, i always made ssure i didnt do that then for some reason kris got it out of me...so i take it back all of it, i cared and liked kris... love ...thats not what it was. it was a relationship based on mistakes. the mistake of using drugs and having sex with someone i didnt love. Big mistkaes that i cant take back, kris will forever be a important part of me. if anything it gave me a postive outlook on things. people are not always as good as the seam and love it totaly bullshit...well im going to stop rambling before i sound like more of an asshole and take up more journal space | |
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| Anonymous | 06-26-03 3:31pm I've been reading your journal for a long time. You need some help..and I dont mean that in a bad way..you just should talk to someone...you dont know what love is...your only 16...your whole life is based on drugs..all the people in your life and all the comments you make it'a all about lies. do you really think anybody you know is honest with you? Forget about that boy..you didnt lose anything...how would you even know if you did? Your actually paranoid..how do you know he "told" on you? Did he say he did? Who can you really believe? Before you even start new with someone else you need to be happy first..and make sure the other kid is not into drugs because if he is it will be the same thing all over again.
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| cait0880 | Re: Re:, 06-26-03 10:24pm i dont know who you are and what to think of what you wrote but i just would like to say that i have cleaned up and i am friends with 100percent drug free kids. and i thought i just said that i didnt belive i reallly loved kirs or anyone for that matter and i think anyone i went out with knows i always say dont say u love me if u dont mean it cuz we are too young...tell me who you are...id like to know |
| Anonymous | I maybe drunk but i no what im saying, 06-27-03 2:29pm Fuck all u people who r talking shit bout kris just cause he left... Honestly fuck all u people, kris just got unlucky and got caught wit shit. I thought u loved him cait well i guess that whole couple months made u forget about a kid u so called loved well fuck u too. And if lou wants to say shit fuck u too. And whoever jill is fuck u too!
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| cait0880 | Re: I maybe drunk but i no what im saying, 06-27-03 3:07pm Hey russ leave Lou and Jill alone i dont know why u said there names but it wasnt needed and i was stupid to day i loved kris love is bulll so fuck you for thinking you have any idea as to what your talking about because you dont know whats its like to me and i dont want to miss kris i dont want to feel so sick that i cant eat sleep or even leave my house im happy so if anyone has something to say well fuck you leave me alone im geting along fine |
Anonymous | Re: Re: I maybe drunk but i no what im saying, 06-27-03 4:54pm You dont know me..I just read the journals from time to time...I thought I'd try to give you some well needed advice.
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| cait0880 | Re: Re: Re: I maybe drunk but i no what im saying, 06-27-03 11:50pm WEll thanks i think |
| cait0880 | Re: Re: Re: Re: I maybe drunk but i no what im saying, 06-29-03 12:49am DOes my life like amuse or soemthing hehe
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