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| aushpog (profile) wrote, on 6-26-2003 at 10:10pm | |
| Current mood: open-minded Subject: JUST BROADENING YOUR HORIZONS ... |
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| here i am again. lol. i was rereading previous entries (i always do that because it gets me to think more and realize more, which pushes me to write more) and i started to think more about mortality and life. i think the other reason i fear death is because of the non-physical part of the afterlife in heaven. part of being alive is seeing things, feeling things, the ability to touch ... i wonder what heaven's like. i remember the explanation of heaven to me was where people's spirits went if they believed in and loved god. but is it really that? how does anyone know, besides the bible? everyone sees heaven as this wonderful place with a white haze and a buffet of sweets the size of the nile river. everyone sees heaven as a place of whatever they want -- big cars, attractive people, the ability to do impossible things; a perfect life in general. that's not what heaven is. i can tell you that. if you believe in god, you would go to a place OF god, not a place of every hedonistic thing you could imagine. in all truth, heaven is life all over again. life is heaven. this is so true to me ... even through all the drama and tragedy and tears and horrors and nightmares. these things make life, help you grow up. when i'm old and about to die, i know that i will be able to look back and tell myself that i would, without a question or a doubt, relive my life -- every single second of it. i would not change it, i would just relive it. i would find 100% joy through every trouble, every tear, everything. what are you scared of leaving behind when you die? life. the people, the places, the things you touched and smelled and heard and saw, the problems you went through and how everything was perfectly fine in the end. that's life. life is so perfect ... the horrible devastations make it what it is. it's like a trial. these trials help you mature ... and without these trials, where would you be? (see james in the bible) i'm going to miss life, you guys. i really am. i hope heaven is like life, with the same family and friends. i don't know what i'd do without you guys, i love you so much. i just want to EXPLODE because i love you so much. for once i know how it feels to be jesus -- so happy and in love with his people that he died for them. for once i know how it feels to love like christ. <333, au†umn |
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jennybrooke812 | hey., 06-27-03 3:39am Hey thanks for your post in my journal,That was very sweet. Can i add you.?
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aushpog | Re: hey., 06-27-03 11:43am of course you can -- can i add you? thanks for replying. =D |
| Jennybrooke812 | Re: Re: hey., 06-27-03 9:21pm yes you can add me:) |