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| joslyn_julia (profile) wrote, on 7-26-2002 at 2:29pm | |
| Current mood: gloomy Music: the most depressing song in the world |
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| i am getting sadder and sadder... tomorrow i will go to jessa's and probly break into tears over nothing apearant although it will be because i miss gary. as for jessa, i was wrong it's not all your doing alot of it was from ryan although he doesn't know it and the only reason you did is because you showed me how to live life to the fullest. my dad is leaving again this weekend and i am stuck with my mother. yes you people do mean alot to me, since you are supportive but all of this pain isn't worth the trouble. i will have to 'put on the face' as gunny puts it and make believe that i'm not the 10th grader who just wants to be loved by someone like she was when her best friend was alive 7 years ago. although i have thought of a zillion different was to get rid of this life and this pain i still am to scared, it's like when you were a kid and you were afraid to play with your favorite barbie doll because you thought it would be 'fun' to cut her hair and you knew your parents would kill you. i can't bring myself to it because i'm afraid if i didn't die my parents would send me to an institution. so i just suck it in and wait till they put me on drugs yay go me back to work |
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jessa_lynne | 07-29-02 12:34pm if you ever kill yourself, i swear, i'll kill you! ummmm.... that made sense. |