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| robbingnovember (profile) wrote, on 7-18-2003 at 11:05pm | |
| Current mood: I felt uncool and hung around the kitchen Music: brand new ( i have to stop haha) Subject: Come to me, the only broken hearted loser you'll ever need |
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| Well then Children, I feel like writing this whole long thing. Three/two days till i turn 16 (9:20 on monday). Dude, i'm still a 12 year old with braces. a milestone and i'm not even fucking getting my license.. my fault. My mother and i decided that i'm immature and childish, not to mention dependent. (which is one of the reasons i dont do well with guys).. which is the reason i'm shocked im turning 16. I mean, come on, i paint lawn gnomes in my spare time and laugh at near death experiances, not to mention skipping down the street and trick or treating on halloween. I even think i'm younger than people my own age. I'm a fucking little kid. And i dont want to grow up either "I'm going to stay 18 forever, so we can stay like this forever and we'll never miss a party cause we keep them going constantly" ..there you go i've figured myself out once again. I'm not turning 16 im turning 5.. and wait till you see my cake. ( and im not imagining how you give me the shivers ) For karin and my sanity I wont expect anything at the end of the summer. I'll just hope and wish eh? And if you've ever said you miss me then dont say you never lied. I'm without you. Oh, by the way i rock. I got 100 ( plus a super job) on my Jew test and a 5 on my ap bio exam.. as well as a 4 in Ap world. But i have sooooooooo much work for the class! This is a lesson in procrastination; i kill myself because im so frustrated and every single second that i put it off is another lonely night ive got to race the clock. Now the decoration of my room has begun.. i am so excited. I will soon have the coolest room in the world. ahhh. i've always wanted my room to be better and now i finally get the chance to put my art to use. My eyes got worse again ( You've got terrible vision if you can't see that i'm in love with you). not that this is important just thought id chart the progress of going blind.. id get lasik i just dont trust statistics. Dana and i were talking today about how i'm good at almost everything (except sports... blah) wow right? haha but i mean what has it gotten me.. it's cool though.. i just wonder if i'm great at anything. i'm a 7 all around i belive.. mediocrity. I like reading old diary entries; they make me laugh at how insane i am. Can't wait till warped tour..mm.. sara better have bought the tickets Happy birthday to Sara .. yesterday not that she isnt in italy Just a thought, I miss Sara, Amy .. a lot err, and Stephanie too.. Lakiesha is more popular then the name Bess and i met Rhonda (gold). I think i'm out of topics Sweet dreams dream in Japanese, dream in Japanese, some language i dont even know how to speak |
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kariny | 07-18-03 11:47pm i think i am turning japanese i think i am turning japanese i really think so...so yeah you ahve the usual pre-16 birthday jitters so to speak. i know i went through it myself. its a time to evaluate any short comings and missed opportunities. hell i am turning 17 and i feel like a middle schooler (I.e.. hey my friend like you.. wanna be her fwb) so yeah i love how you ahve the perrfect song lyrics intertwined thorugh the entry. oo old entries are the ebst. makes you actually realize what a noob you are naturally. uh yeah.. my binder of entries.. ingenius. you should do it. oo sweet 16.. you MUST watch 16 candles.. keep waiting for your jake ryan sbe. |
justlikeyouimagined | 07-19-03 10:30pm peresonally i feel insulted. whose the person painting lawn gnomes beside you? me. who the hell cares that other ppl dont do that. you do what makes you happy. dont be one of those ppl that wont do things that just arent cool enough... that go to parties on halloween bc its hte thing to do instead of dressing up like pirates and what not.. its all about being you. look at peter pan... he never grew up. dont rush childhood cus soon it will be gone nad then you will wish you had done things like paint gnomes |
robbingnovember | Re:, 07-19-03 10:44pm you dont take things the way i mean them.. i never said it was a bad thing or else i orbably wouldnt do these things.. i dont care about what other people think or i'd hide that i did these things.. im childish its just a fact.. im not rushing thats why i dont have a car.. you always get so upset about everything haha i didnt mean for it to sound angry or anything |
blueyed | Re: Re:, 07-20-03 5:54pm hello dearly beloved,
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ali-baba | 07-23-03 2:21pm ah i miss my sarah bess!!! Congrats on the 4, and the 5, and the 100! I feel so disconnected. All i can go on is what everyone writes. My one connection to the outside world. When i get back we need ..i need...a girls night. but no going to justin mayercheks house and such. (including abducting stacey!) btw i got you a cd and dana and sarah and kariny of course. well times up.adios
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