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| JB1863 (profile) wrote, on 7-23-2003 at 3:55am | |
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| yes well this is my second entry of the night. make sure you read the entry right before this one before you read this one or else you might be confused. well i was laying in bed but just couldnt sleep until i came on and got some stuff out. well tonight audrey told me she had an online journal, its a live journal, not my cup of tea but whatever and she asked if i had one too, well i lied and said no i dont. the hell if shes going to read this! especially after i read hers! i was eager to see if she wrote about me, and she did. this is what is said "Oh yeah, and this random guy came tonight and gave me roses??? Awww" Yeah. She definately isnt reading this journal, when for the past week every entry has had something to do with her. man i just want to go home, i feel like i've been defeated by cali. i'm not in my element here. yes i know i'm being rash saying i've been defeated because things didnt go quite as i'd hoped with audrey but whatever, i can do what i want, if you dont like it then stop reading. i just want to go back to where people think i'm cool and want to be around me. i read all of audrey's journal, i mean you can only expect that from me, i'm an obsessive person. she started it on June 6th, 2003, so i read all the entries since then, which really wasnt that many, only about 30 or so. she doesnt update nearly as much as me. she has more of a life then i do. well thats going to change this year, i'm going to get myself a life. but audrey's journal was very interesting, i felt like i got to know her a lot better afterwards and i still hope we keep in touch because shes still mad awesome and i'd like a friend when i come out here next year. oh well, i think she was my obsession for this year. every year i have one and i obtain them in the summer. ali, holly, audrey. except audrey will be the first one i didnt go out with. i want to go home, but i said that already. once i get back to boca i think i will be instantly recovered from this but until then i have nothing to do but rot in hell. I am not ready to conquer california, i have realized that. i need more training first, this year is my final year of training and then i'll be thrust back into this dangerous land. i will survive, for i have to, and i will win, i will win....
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ProjectDefault | 07-23-03 4:15am Dude, she's a pretty girl, but..the fact of the matter is, you tried. You gave it your all. She had a boyfiend, so what. You're in California, and if i were there I'd be obsessing about girls too. Don't be hard on yourself, you're THE Justin Braun, and everyone loves you for it, just because someone that barely knows you isn't interested in you, because you're younger, they've already got a b/f, and probably cause you're a bit of a stranger to them means nothing man. We may not be the best of friends, but you're one of the coolest kids I've ever met, and having so many friends and doing what you've done, damn man -- that's a victory in my book. |
coley810 | 07-23-03 12:41pm Justin.. you and me.. we're in the SAME EXACT situation. We need to get through this together. And unlike what whoever that is in the other comment said, I think you have every right to feel upset about this. Don't get my wrong.. I agree with him. You're wonderful and everyone in Boca loves you.. but you're still human and you can still be upset. Call me so we can talk about this crap! I love u!! :) |
| Anonymous | 07-23-03 8:32pm Sure you have the right to be upset. But if you're so defeated by this one thing, how are you going to handle other disappointments to come? You're stronger than you think. If you think that the glass is half empty, than it is. But that won't get you anywhere. |