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| Kandy (profile) wrote, on 8-3-2003 at 7:36pm | |
| Current mood: bored |
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| *sighs* i just don't know how to handle things anymore. I had a great day hanging out w/people yet at the end of the night I just felt like crying. *sighs* so much for that right? And the whole thing is I really don't know why... *sighs* I feel bad about hurting Christopher. But w/everything going on.... It's like how can we last with no contact? I mean when he lived in Grand Haven we at least had e-mail. But *sighs* Plus James has been on my mind. He's like the one person every guy is compared to. *shrugs* I don't know why... but he still is. We both want a fresh start... and to take things slow *although we've already rushed things a bit* He still doesn't believe that I want to try things out from like scratch. I figure after 8 months and he's still in there alot.... and the feelings are still there and pop out unwarrented occasionally, why not just try it and see where it goes? *sighs* I know people will hate me saying that and most won't even understand why, considering how much the two of us have hurt one another. but.... if I get hurt it'll be my own fault this time. I know it. ANYWAYS! I finally have my own computer... in my room!!! Only problem..... no internet at the moment.. so I'm on the regular house computer. Well I should prly get going...if ya'll wanna complain or yell at me just do it and get it done. I will try to explain myself to the best of my ability but if you yell at me... I'll prly have a short fuse as well. Just a short lil warning. ~Adios!~ |
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box | 08-09-03 11:43am Do you really feel bad? Well if you did then why is their more to the story than what you told me? |
| Anonymous | 09-14-03 10:19am So you do have a conscience? |