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| punkxtrixie (profile) wrote, on 8-18-2003 at 7:00pm | |
| Current mood: suicidal, alone, depressed Music: TBS :: You're So Last Summer Subject: death |
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| well...so far in my life...ive lost a total of 4 people now...and i lost one...but unfortunately...it wasnt because of death, he basically abonded me...he could be reading this, if he is, i hate you dad, its because of you, i dont believe anything anyone says, i actually love someone, and i cant believe anything they say, its because of you that i dont feel anything anymore, i barley smile, i hope you remember what happend, what you did to us, how you threatend mom...throwing things, i hope you die, you dont deserve anything in this world, i hope sherri leaves you, shes a wonderful person she needs more, and grace shes 2 she doesnt know any better, i dont want my sister being raised by you, if she turns into you, i dont know what anyyone will do. its because of you i have so much anger, i hope that you know how much everyone hates you. ill never forgive you, and i cant be your little girl anymore, i never was, you didnt care, and you dont, its because of you that im always so alone, im afraid that ill always be alone. you did all this to me, dont you miss your kids? you lost me a long time ago, do i have to kill myself for you to show any gratitude? i just want you to be proud, but you dont care, no matter what we do, you dont know what we went through to get by, my mom gave up so much just for me...her whole life...im her life, you didnt deserve her love, whats your explination for all that happend...youre going to have to explain sometime...you beat me up so it seems, im screaming inside, and its all for you, you created this, im your image...i look exactly like you, how can you deny me, lie to my face...your wife, your exwife, my sister, ill do everything i can to keep her safe. i wish you would dissapear...i could go on forever...talkign about your lies, im a lie, because of what you did, youre the lowest form of life in my mind, i just wanted you to know how i really feel. and go ahead, go cry to sherri, hold grace in your arms, remember what we almost had, dont feel sorry. also..i knew someone...not very well, hes dying right now in the hospital...this is for him. and anyone that i knew...whos thinking about killing themselves, you know i love you. and im tired of hiding it, i love you sean, more than my life itself, i know you could care less...best of luck to you and jess, have those 20 kids and never stop loving eachother. to anyone i knew and lost track of...and have yet to contact this is for you too. ill never forget any of you...wish i could see you again. |
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blondereject | 08-18-03 9:35pm twinny i love u soo much tghat was the bravest thing u ever did im crying so hard right now i dont want u to hear i feel embaressed of my tears twinny im so sorry about ur daddy u jsut herd my mom i guess we kinda come from the same background but not really at all but i love u twinny ur the bestest frined ever i hope we are frineds for like erver i lvoe u twinny mwuah! love ur twinny |
| punkxtrixie | Re:, 08-19-03 2:57pm ...its not that brave... |