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| musicalbabe (profile) wrote, on 8-28-2003 at 11:42pm | |
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| well i've been thinking about stuff. when i'm not completely busy in the presence of music, i tend to do that. high school is an interesting thing. there are so many more underpriviledged and hispanic kids now. i SORT OF understand what they meant by 'eganville' because we really are all rich prissy white kids without a care in the world. the thing that surprises me though, is that i don't see the hispanic kids who are underpriviiledged. i guess it's because i'm only in honors or regular classes, but all the ones i've encountered are really bright and cool people. i expected the cool part, but not so much the intelligence. so maybe they can't write an essay for the district and get a 5 on it, but they are REALLY really bright and interested and knowledgable. that just took me by surprise. i was always warned that because they had less money or were underprivileged, they would definately be way below a los altos intelligence and unhappy. its really a shame that they don't explain that there ARE a ton of them who are just as bright as we all are, if not at the same writing level. that is just SO racist. i can't stand it!! there also seem to be two extremes of the emotional confidence of freshman entering the school. either they are taken aback and WAY quieter and shy than usual, or they are filled with inspiration, confidence, and vigor. (i would be the second.) it seems like some of the popular people aren't contributing as much, or feeling so at ease, and some people, like me, are contributing way more, making new friends, and excelling in their academics and extracurricular stuff. it's great. i really don't give a damn that i'm not the most popular in the class. i'm gonna answer the questions and have fun. i don't care that i can't sing or play as well as everyone in girls' ensemble and marching band. i'm gonna try my hardest and maintain a positive attitude and enjoy myself. and ya know what's even cooler? for doing so, i'm actually gaining popularity. ppl talk to me online when they didn't before, people even talk to me IN PERSON when they would have passed by me before, and quieter, random people come to me for advice or just to chat. IT ROCKS! i like this whole confidence booster/happy thing! i can tell that it's soon to be confident/happy/stressed/tired/overworked, though, but i'm still optimistic and hopeful about it all!! i was also thinking about a few of my teachers. i was told mrs. williams is hard, but an extremely nice lady. now she annoys me less. (actually, that's probably because i had lab with brett today, and we totally hit it off and he's an awesome guy so i was happy. o and he thinks she's annoying as hell too. and he's smart. totally friendly too. could this be an aquarius' ultimate friendship to relationship situation?? haha, idk! it would be cool though!) o and mr. freeman. he has his radical-ass ideas and all, but he makes stuff remotely interesting. he's very animated. and i actually cared that the ww1 was the first industrialized war and that 10 times more ppl were killed in wwI than any other war. it fascinated me. SO WEIRD! i usually couldnt give a rat's ass about history. i WILL go crazy about his radicalness though. IT PISSES ME THE FUCK OFF!! as i wrote in my english journal, people have the privilege and right to change, and should excersise that right. there is always room for improvement. he just doesn't see that. this might REALLY start to bug me. so much that i might even like talk to him after class about it. i can't stand people who think they're right all the time. no one's perfect like that. o and on an interesting note, martin luther king jr. gave his 'i have a dream' speech 40 years ago today. isn't that just awesome? and ya know what i also just realized? this entry has really been about differences and races and stuff. i am just such the little freedom fighter, aren't i? i guess i really proved that this morning when i made my mandala for mr. smith. my 2 big symbols were a heart and a treble cleff. (the two major things in my life: love, and music) and inside my heart a drew a rainbow. the center of my mandala is a rainbow. how fitting. |
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iwish2bemilkywhite | 08-29-03 7:53pm ooo he did? i have a dream!! ok, well anyway, come back and talk to me online!! NOW!! |
| Anonymous | freedom fighter???, 08-30-03 1:34am U spent the first half of this talking about how the hispanic kids are by default dumb and were shocked they had brains. and it was called eganville becuase everyone knew each other and we were like a mini community. U obviously weren't paying attention were you? stop once in a while and live in the moment. U r not the center of the world. because ur gaining popularity doesn't mean popular people are decresing. its great you have new friends at all but dont make fun of others for being intimidated and shy in class. I'm sry if I'm making you feel bad but I just really feel strongly about everything you wrote. so next time you think about equality between races, think about actual EQUALITY so RESPECTING other races as you respect ur own. Just because they have dark skin doesn't make them dumb. |
musicalbabe | Re: freedom fighter???, 08-30-03 9:28pm louise, you know i didn't mean it that way. |
Anonymous | Re: Re: freedom fighter???, 08-31-03 12:12am geez is it that obvious it was me? but i don't kno wat u meant. seriously it sounded like u meant exactly what you said. and it's not like ur contradicting me with specifics. saying you didn't mean it doesn't show me that. still sounds like you think the hispanic kids are atuomatically stupid unless they walk up to you abd tell you 'I got an A in math and it's fun!' |