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| kate (profile) wrote, on 8-29-2003 at 10:39pm | |
| Current mood: regretful Subject: it's fucked up |
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| yeah.. this is my life. Maybe I'm starting to get used to it getting worse constantly. whatever. i'm apathetic, i'm angry and i don't care. i've lost a lot of happiness in my life and who fucking cares... yeah, sucks to be kate. yes, i'm whining about my life. i'm pathetic. blah blah blah.. go suck a dick. i don't care to hear anyone's lame ass comebacks on how i need to stop feeling sorry for myself. this is me, kate. Everything sucks. and I'm sick of it. fuck it all. it's not your fault justin. don't feel guilty. there's no way you could've prevented it. as for your mom talking to my parents, they don't give a shit. they don't like your mom a lot. because they judge and they'll never change. if you don't meet their standards, they don't accept you. *sigh* I cried today. I watched 8 fucking hours worth of movies to pass the time. For the first time ever, a movie actually made me cry. I've gotten teary before, sure. But this movie actually mustered up one tear to fall down my cheek. Igby Goes Down. I think it's my favorite movie. I've seen it before, but this time it actually made me cry. Maybe because I can relate to him and such. yeah. fuck this psychological crap. I'm so sick of being deep and understanding and all this shit. I think way too fucking much. I understand more than I should sometimes I think, yet I'm never taken seriously. nobody even cares. I could be as dumb and ditsy as the next person and nobody would care any more than they do now. Fuck it. I'm done trying. I'm never going to cry for anyone again. Tears don't do anything but give me a headache and I have enough of those. I'm going to go to school. I'm going to hug my friends. I'm going to get my good grades. and I'm going to feel fucking bored and pointless the whole time. This is me. I am Kate. And this is my life. And I finally realized it. | |
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Neilee-boo | 08-30-03 1:08am Well, i'd give you a *hug* but i know they do nothing, you don't care. They're pointless. The only reason i put them is because i'm not smart enough to reaspond with anything intelligent to what you wrote. Understanding people and letting all their problems weigh on your shoulders has finally caught up with you. I'm here to listen when you want to talk. I have hugs to give when you want them. Only look at the little things in life, let every little thing make you happy. Don't look at the big picture, it's only depressing. |
kate | Re:, 08-30-03 1:32am I got the feeling, you're feeling a little bitter about something. What is it?
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| Neilee-boo | Re: Re:, 08-30-03 10:38am What am I bitter about? I'm bitter because as much as I try I'll never be able to write as good as you. I could never express what I feel in words that well. I'll never be good enough for me to be happy. |
WindedHero | achem., 08-30-03 9:25am I went through the same problem. The burden of other people's problems overcame me, and I stopped caring. That was in the summer of my freshman year. I don't care about other people's problems as much, and I've been having fun ever since then.
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fadingfallenstar | 08-30-03 10:58am hey kate...I just wanted to say I hope you feel better, I relate to you a lot, however I dont know how you feel exaclty..I hope everything works out. all you can do is try...with everything you do, and try to just know people are thankful for what you do..it sucks to not have people notice but all you can really do is be there. i have been in that situation many times...im not trying to be some counselor, heh..just saying what i think.
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