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| DayDream (profile) wrote, on 8-24-2002 at 11:38am | |
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| Can someone just shoot me now? Please? Last night was just horrendous, and this morning hasn't been too hot so far either. So I went to De Smet's mixer. God, i just don't ever want to go to highschool. There's no way in hell i'm ever going to fit in. I went with Meg, Kate, and Anna and of course Kate, knows every person that populates St. Louis, and so do Meg and Anna. And then there's me, Tall girl's friend. God, I have a fucking name! Grr...so there's about 63547 insanely got guys...good thing i talked to any. It was just a not fun night. I walked around because the people i did talk to would just walk away and find someone else. So i wandered by myself most of the night. Grrr, fitting in just isn't going to happen. Hoorah! I'll be an outcast guys! So after the mixer Meg's dad drops me off and my mom wants to hear all about it and all i could manage to say was it sucked. She just gave me one of those sympathetic motherly looks and i went upstairs. So i get online, thinking maybe someone will talk to me and it won't be so bad. Yea i was definitely striking out like none other last night. Sarah and i started talking and that was fine, then Lowell i'ms me and we're talking and it's fine and it was all ok for a little while. Sarah's still trying to figure out if he likes her, so we start playing the question game, and i asked him what song he can relate to the most. And he said thay song by Mario, that Just a Friend song. So Sarah got upset, and Lowell and her started duking it out. And Lowell's telling me how awful he feels because what he's saying sounds so harsh, and Sarah's crying, and i'm just in the middle...trying to give advice to both of them without tunring into the bad guy myself. I just wanted to jump out a window. So they both pretty much butchered eachother and Sarah got kinda bitter because nothing had changed and i guess i kinda got the aftermath of that one. But, somehow, through the course of the night we ended up breaking up or something. I said something to Lowell about us being together still and he told Sarah that i still thought we were together. And she was like you knew that would hold him back, we're not together Allie. So i just stared at the computer for a little while, really confused. Evidentally, we haven't been for a while...hmm good thing i knew! I'm not solid, and can't commit because we had an open deal and i'll never know how much she liked me and i just wanted to scream. I just sat here trying not to. So she said it would be like it used to, but then again i thought it was something completely different. So, I guess that's pretty much over. It's cool I guess, i can't give her what she needs or wants so she'll be happier. So if i break down everything that happened last night it would go something like this. -I went to a craptastic mixer, and had someone splatter Hawaiian Punch all over my new pants. -I didn't dance with anyone. -Pretty much threw away $7. -Come home, get on...and all hell broke loose. - Got in the middle of an argument between the guy my friend likes and my friend. -Lost my girlfriend. Ahhh, what fun. So this morning, i went to sleep around 5. The mother comes in around 10 and tells me that me her and dad are all gonna spend the day together. Already, i want to cry. She starts walking around my room and proceeds to yell and throw a fit about how messy it was, and how unclassy it was. She got mad at my friends because my room was completely trashed and questioned what kind of friends they are. Found lime green paint on my wall, and a whole pile of wet towels on the hard wood floor. So, on the bright side, i got out of bonding with the rents...but on the other hand i'm stuck her making this bitch spotless. And i have to read a fucking book, that i'm supposedly re-reading because i didn't get it. Again, will someone please just shoot me? I'm supposed to go to Lil's tonight, i hope that's still going on. I just need to get away. Kevin might be there too, that would be nice...heh, good thing he likes me and all. I can go if everything gets done...wiuyhfkjhg. So i guess i should go do that, i'm really hungry though. I might eat first. |
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snickerslickers88 | 08-24-02 1:56pm awww, babe i'm sorry. sounds like you've had a rough couple of days. the mixer did kinda suck, sorry i spilled the hawaiian punch on you, it wasn't intentional. kate was pissing me off last night, shes got the biggest ego i swear sometimes i could kill her. i'm also really sorry about sarah, listen if you need someone to bitch at, i'm here to listen. |
imation | pretty girl, 08-24-02 4:18pm ok. we've gotta talk about this, because i don't think you understood what happened last night. we didn't "break up" i just was honest with you about how much you hurt me when i offered whatever i offered before mexico and you didn't take it on account of the guys you MIGHT hook up with. we've been together since december, you and i both know that. but guys can't deal with that, do you know what i mean? lowell looks at the word together and starts tweaking.. he doesn't understand the open relationship part and how much i like you, and blahblah. i know that last night sucked, it sucked for everyone. but i know lowell and i will get it right eventually, even though now i know he'll never like me. but babygirl, we completely misunderstood each other last night. it was fucking 3 in the morning and i didn't fall asleep till almost 7, then woke up at 9 for swimming and i'm almost dead. literally. anyways. will you give me a call today? as soon as you get this.. i'll be here all day reading this fucking book. i'm sorry you felt like that's what happened last night. its not at all. anyways. drop me a line. i'm sorry for everything. |