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| Beagle147 (profile) wrote, on 8-31-2003 at 12:23am | |
| Current mood: Blah Music: "Flagpole Sitta" -Harvey Danger |
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| I'm so sick of things being how they are. I wish that things would just get resolved or end or something. Everything that's happening just never goes away and I'm really feeling that today. Like none of the problems that are in my life ever end. It's just one endless cycle. I think that I am just at a point where I am ready to move on from what I'm doing. I'm ready to move out and I'm ready to be done with high school. I think that's why I'm doing all this college crap. I'm so ready to just start the next phase of my life that I'm just trying to start it. Anything now that I can get involved in in terms of college or independence or anything I am. I'm switching my schedule around to get into more college-ap-friendly classes. I'm thinking about what party to register voting under. I just think I'm having difficulty realizing that this is my 17th birthday. I keep on going through all this crap about how old I am. I'm older than Harry Potter, I've outgrown the growing up girls series, I'm too old for disney channel contests.. And yet I am so ready for this to be my 18th or 19th birthday and I can just leave and go do my own thing. I dunno.. On a less emotionally draining note, today is my grandfather's birthday, so we all went out to dinner. It's always interesting to sit around and listen to 2 hours of war stories. That's about all the highlights from the day.. I went shopping this morning sort of, then after dinner went out and about with Krystle and Nikki. It was fun cause I got a cup of water and blew bubbles in it for a good 45 minutes. Hmm...short journal entry. I really just dont have a lot to say. It just seems today like not a lot is going on, even though I did a ton of stuff.. Maybe I'll feel better tomorrow. I'll post later when I feel more ....interesting. I will leave you with this thought: I'm not sick but I'm not well And I'm so hot, cause I'm in hell Been around the world and found that only stupid people are breeding The cretins cloning and feeding And I don't even own a tv Put me in the hospital for nerves and then they had to commit me You told them all I was crazy They cut off my legs now I'm and amputee, god damn you... I wanna publish zines And rage against machines I wanna pierce my tongue It doesn't hurt, it feels fine The trivial's sublime I'd like to turn off time And kill my mind, kill my mind Paranoia paranoia Everybody's coming to get me Just say you never met me I'm running underground with the moles, digging in holes Hear the voices in my head I swear to god it sounds like they're snoring But if you're bored then you're boring The agony and the irony, they're killing me... |
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Beagle147 | Correcting my own typos, 08-31-03 1:10am "They cut off my legs now I'm and amputee..."
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| Anonymous | 08-31-03 1:21am Discussing it with you in IM.. but still.
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Beagle147 | Re:, 08-31-03 1:25am I'm not necessarily wishing I was 18, I just would like to be done with atleast something. It just seems like there is never an end to anything. I guess you're right about the overwhelming-ness, cuz that's what Krystle told me too. That like I'm just stressed out and have shut down from it. I just kind of got on here to type and see what came out. And that song you should know kristen, since it's THE SONG POSTED AS MUSIC UP TOP!! But I'll give you a break only because of your hasty reply. ;-) It's harvey danger's "flagpole sitta." It's a good song for my mood. |
DragonSpeaker | Re: Re:, 08-31-03 12:28pm I know how you feel tool. : / I am so sick of this, and I'm so jealous when I look at other people our age that get to enjoy this time in their lives. By 'this' I mostly mean all the IB crap we're stuck with, but also home issues.. I'm trying to stay sort of upbeat, so I'm cutting that bit short. -.-
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noodlesinabag | 09-01-03 11:06pm LOL. welcome to jr year! maybe it's mildly innaporoprate that i'm laughing, but to tell you the truth, this is wat ur year's gonna be like. I mean.. on one hand after this year, you'll be homefree... senior year really isn't that bad... except for EE.. take the summer class! and then on the other hand, you'll find that throughout this year, you will be clinically depressed. no really. take those quizzes online and it'll tell you u need medical help. lol. really though.. even though you can't see the end of the tunnel, it's really there. now.. if you forgot about chem... maybe u might see the tunnel ;] kudos. honey, u'll get through!
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