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| unbleachedblond (profile) wrote, on 9-7-2003 at 10:30pm | |
| Current mood: frustrated |
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| im frustrated. at myself and my "friends". nobody seems to understand. i just need my space. ive been workin at my trust problem...but then this happens and now its worse than ever. i have a hard time even being around guys when theres no one else around. yea im paranoid - i know that. i talked to one of my close friends tonite and she said that thats gunna be our goal of the year: to overcome our biggest fears. thats gunna be so hard tho. it IS so hard tho. bein around guys has never bothered me this much before. and now this and i cant trust any one of them. they just dont seem to understand what im going through. its soo hard to deal with and they jus think im bitchy or somehting. im so frustrated. and im scared. cuz i dont know what to do. the only thing i can do rite now is put on that plasticized smile and pretend that there's nuthin wrong. cuz thats the only thing i can think of doin and i dont wanna be a burden on others. i dunno. im jus hurt. it hurts when it seems like no one really understands u. i dunno... | |
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jburt1 | 09-07-03 10:49pm Jill,
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Fatman | 09-08-03 1:11pm What happened, Jill? What's wrong? |