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| mle (profile) wrote, on 9-10-2003 at 11:29pm | |
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saw marcus tonight. still no couch to sit on in his room, and andrew (roomie) was there so we went back to his house. last night i missed him so much. weird feeling because ive never had it with him. sure, ive wanted to see him when i couldnt - but mostly just when i was falling apart and i needed someone to glue me back. i *missed* him. and again this afternoon... just a stab into me. i just wanted to curl up in his arms and cry. but once we got together, i reverted back to 6th grade bubbliness. wtf? thats not what i wanted. i wanted to get some of this hopeless desperation out. i wanted to cry. and all that would come out were giggles. along with uh, other noises. all our lives get complicated search for pleasures overrated (fuel - innocent) and now that im doing religion as independant study, i get out after 5th hour and have a good extra 20 minutes before grcc class than i had before. perfect time for a smoke break. but no cigarettes. and im getting the slightest feeling im slowly addicting myself to them... so i must stop. even if temporarily... but oh how i want one to go smoke out on our new brick patio in the back - look at the stars between the tops of the big old pines and have a good, hearty cry... mle |
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drunkslut | Im here to be a smart-ASS!, 09-11-03 6:07pm if you get out for independent study before fifth hour and were to have a smokey treat then, how would you accomplish seeing the stars between the pine trees, hummmmmm?
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| mle | Re: Im here to be a smart-ASS!, 09-13-03 12:41am well the smokey treat downtown before class was a seperate situation than here at night, silly.
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