09-16-03 4:47pm

You say you don't want to play the victim...but thats exactly what you're TRYING to do. I'm sorry Becky...I have sympathy for the situation you're in with your family and stuff...and I know this is hard on you at this time, but I can have no sympathy for you when it comes to anything else. You put yourself in these postitions. See it all makes so much sense now why you didn't call me the night you decided to go over to Joey's. You knew that if you told me that the reason you weren't coming over or the reason why something suddenly came up again was because you were going over to your boyfriends...I'd be pissed. Yeah...we both know that is sort of a given. And you have Danny do your dirty work. It was still nice to talk to him...no doubt...and I know that you can be a good friend...and have been....but you're getting into this relationship WAY TOO FAST. In one of your entries...you wished someone would suppot Joey and your relationship. Screw you then. Like I've never listened to your problems. I don't get it...maybe this relationship is changing you. I'm not sure. And don't tell me I didn't give you the chance to talk on the phone last night...you're the one who hung up. Be angry at yourself. It's not my fault that these points I make are true. And another thing...I know that Robert doesn't think any less of you..and has never called you stupid...and "B"...I don't know. But you shouldn't care about "B" anyways...you have a boyfriend. And the reason I bring that up is...putting words in your friends mouths...is not going to make the situation better. Don't ever accuse me of not caring or not willing to listen to your side of the story...you yourself said that you "weren't able to"...and you already know my op. on that. Now if I have to understand where you're coming from...so can you. If you wanted me to get your side of the story..on Saturday evening you should have called me yourself to tell me you couldn't come. It's like you're trying to make everyone feel sorry for you...and in some ways I do. But I will not take back any of the things I said. The truth will come back to bite you in the butt..and yeah...sometimes it hurts. And if you want to let your mistake ruin our friendship...than power to you. I know that you have stong feelings for Joey...and I respect that...because I know how it feels to be in love...and it hurts when all your "friends" tell you you're not. You are entitled to your feelings. I can't say that you're not in love, because who am I to talk about the way you feel? All I know is that I want to be your friend..but your actions this weekend told me...you don't feel the same way. And by the way Joey...keep your head in your own business...please don't leave comments..they are useless and are unaccountable..this is between me and Becky. Back to you Becky... I'll always think of you as a good friend whether you reply to this comment saying you want to blow the deal off and move on or whether you say you want to cut our friendship here and now. Maybe me publizing our fight on my journal was wrong..but it's not like anyone cares...and I could have revealed a whole lot more...but even out of anger...I am in no place to do so. Your secrets are always safe with me...because it is your choice what you plan to and not to disclose...if you prefer...you may reply through my e-mail... or re-post a reply. Even in the worst of times...Best wishes

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