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JB1863 (profile) wrote,
on 9-16-2003 at 8:59pm
Current mood: better
Music: The Name Game
When you eat dark chocolate and fruit punch gatorade together, it tastes like throw up or burp. yuck. ok so today was a better day. i wasnt sick this morning. yay. drama 2 was alright, i ran some arrands, hasko lectured, then everyone picked duet scenes. i am helping out brielle and katie cuz their scene has a guy in it so i said i'd be in it with them. in drama 1 hasko lectured a little and they finished their mimes. in 5th hour we did you cant stop the beat. its still in question if we're doing it for wednesday. personally i dont think its ready, towards the end it starts to get sloppy and liz and amanda dont sing their duet part so that part usually isnt good. i think that the parents that have been around for a while are going to think we suck if we do that tomorrow and we dont have it together. whatever. ok after that i went home and fell asleep for like 2 hours. it was nice but i wasnt happy when i woke up, i'm always mad grumpy when i wake up from a nap and i feel like crap. well after that i went to rachel reaboi's house with JT to approve some program stuff for the variety show. then came home. now i'm kinda just down. i need some change in my life, its been too constant for me. its the same crap day after day. i wanna date someone but i'm mad picky about who i date. the girl i had feelings for i cant date because of outside influences. it annoys me that nothing can happen with her. i mean i wasnt planning on getting into a serious long term relationship with her but i thought we could have some fun and dated or something. but when i'm restricted like that it really annoys me and i just dwell about it and i've been thinking a lot about it lately and it just doesnt make me too happy. well tomorrow is a mad busy day, so goodnight!


~Shout Outs~

Chris Burgos, Brielle, Katie, JT, Rachel, Danielle
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Anonymous

Discouraging message =\, 09-16-03 10:17pm

Justin,
Hello. Ok, so I was reading this entry and I got a little discouraged at something said "..but when i'm restricted like that..." I'm assuming its a friend who has "restricted" you, and if it is, i think that's so wrong. Whether how close or how not close you are to someone, I dont see where they get that right to say, who you can or who you cant date. If you like someone and you want to date them, you should have that right, and shouldnt be held back. I just dont agree...Good Luck

-Tree

p.s.. sorry, i wasnt logged in.

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JB1863

09-16-03 10:24pm

I agree with you but this time its outta my hands. I'm not gonna fight it this time because i'll lose a friend and the girl wont fight with me. But its not like i've fallen in love with this girl and i cant be without them. i mean i like them a lot and i'd love to date them but its not the end of the world if we arent together. believe me if i felt strongly enough i would fight, i dont give up that easily.

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Anonymous

09-17-03 4:50pm

I was in a similar situation myself. It really sucks that you can't do what you want. You have to ask yourself, is this girl worth a shot? If your gut is telling you that, go for it. The fact that it's irritating you that you can't be with her could be a sign. It sounds like you really care about her. Do what feels right, and don't let other people dictate your actions. You have to be happy, right?

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JB1863

09-17-03 6:09pm

This isnt just my decision here, its the other parties too. Plus i leave in 8 months, whats the point in getting into a serious relationship just to have to say goodbye. I'll get over this, dont worry.

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