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| jburt1 (profile) wrote, on 9-18-2003 at 12:01am | |
| Current mood: everything Music: against me "I still love you julie" Subject: LONG ASS POST |
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| Looking through my retreat pictures yesterday, I realized that I still have issues that are left unresolved, demons that haven't gone away. At the circle of truth, I felt that I was okay with everything. Even if I wasn't, I had too much to say and I didn't know how to say it. Retreat really wasn't that bad. In fact, I liked it. The circle of truth was the best part, just because it revealed a lot about people; at least you got to see a side that they don't show at school. When I got up there (following Derek Gabris), I basically said that high school hasn't been "the best years of my life" and that I've been looking forward to college to run away from my problems, but that that wasn't possible. I told my class that I had judged them and wanted to go into this year with an open-mind. I never did say anything about my friends. I didn't want to leave anyone out, but I would have mentioned andre, nick, and jill. Andre has been the best friend I've had since I came to catholic in 6th grade. I actually remember meeting him and have a lot of fun memories with him. Nick has always watched my back, looking out for me, and I almost died with him 4 times. Jill has always been there to listen to everyone's problems, including mine, and to give good advice. And there are more...Katie, the rational one, whom I will always remember for that night we spent in sorrento, and Christina for the strong perosn that she is who seems to have common sense. There are people that I've grown distant from, which is fine, but I guess I would've wanted to say something about it. I'll have no regrets though. The first night was terrible b/c the guys kept on talking ALL NIGHT practically. They were being honest and saying what they thought of everyone, which was cool. I'd have participated, except for the fact that I was cranky, had a headache, and TIRED. The next night was Scatter 2003, followed by Pad Raid 2003 in the morning. The ropes courses and teamwork were fun. In a way, the retreat did bring people closer and change things. A lot of people seemed happy today, even me, like they were being nice to everyone. But I dunno. I was also excited because yearbooks came in. It's a great feeling to see your work published. You know, I'm beginning to think seriously about the navy or rotc programs. I got a call from a navy recruiter tonight, and he wants me to come in next week. He told me that the navy will pay for my FULL college tuition (not sure on that one), and I watched the video that said I'd have to serve only one weekend a month, two weeks a year. Not bad for a free-ride. Right now I'm just overwhelmed with everything I guess. Coming back to school the teachers, naturally, bombarded us with homework and upcoming tests. the price to play. Not to forget that my dad isn't a father. All the kids at retreat got "affirmation letters" from their families that told them what great people they were and how important they were..blah, blah, blah. All I got was two lousy religious cards with "love mom & dad" accompanied by some 99 cent bookmark (the price tag was on it). I guess you can't change people. I could just be misreading the situation. I want to be open-minded, but don't know if that will happen. There are just some things I can't see changing. | |
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neo | 09-18-03 10:07pm $50,000 after being done with them..
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| neo | Re:, 09-18-03 10:10pm and ure a senior.. tisk tisk dude im a junior ....... i would join the air force because if u do u can fly and maybe learn to fix planes.. u don't need 20,20 most of the time for air force..
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jburt1 | Re: Re:, 09-19-03 1:14am Yes, tisk tisk on me. I'm a procrastinating senior. I remember the days when I excected I would have already applied to all my schools by this point. I think it comes down to what interests you. If you make $80,000 a year but have to work all the time and hate the work, it's not worth it. Personally, I don't really want to go into a science related career. And I'm only THINKING about the Navy. If I were to make a decision right now, it would be to not join. And yes, I get good grades...what's this about the coast guard?? |
unbleachedblond | 09-22-03 10:26pm proud member of pad raid 2003 :D |