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mle (profile) wrote,
on 3-8-2002 at 11:10pm
Current mood: pissed off
Music: godsmack - i stand alone
Subject: VENTING - no offense!
what the fuck?! what the hell is wrong with me? in 1 day, i get bitched out big time by a buncha people i previously thought liked/understood me. where did this come from?! i always *assumed* i was a bitch, but never knew how much it was true/how much other people really think it. even 1 of my good friends told me i could be such a powerful person but i have a bad attitude. what the hell is wrong w/ me?! im so negative, its depressing/upsetting, but the fact that other people catch on and hate it even more than i do is just unthinkably painful/upsetting. im so upset. i almost screamed in the car tonight. why the hell do i have to be like this, why do i have to act the way i do?! why cant i just be an innoncent, quiet, well-liked lil girl?! im never going to get anywhere in life because im such a complainer.... god, what the hell can i do to change it!? its so much easier said than done! i feel so helpless!!

*mle*
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spud

03-09-02 2:40pm

you seem to put WAY TOO MUCH stock in what other people think of you. what does it matter? do YOU enjoy yourself? are YOU comfy with how you look? and if you're not, figure out things to do that make you feel better. things to do for fun. that's my take on things. and it's helped me out of lots of depression. i'd love to blab more, but i'll try to avoid telling you how to run your life. just figure out what works best for you, and makes you feel the best. i love comedy. humor is the greatest, but is lost on the emotionally discontent.

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mle

Re:, 03-09-02 4:47pm

yea i know what ur talking about w/ wasting humor on "the emotionally discontent".
i dont know though - what you said is helpful, but my mindset/thinking process kinda limits its helpfulness. a big prob is that i *dont* like who i am,etc. but i cant seem to change the way i feel or act no matter how hard i try. i dont know... i gues all i can do is work harder
*mle*

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spud

Re: Re:, 03-11-02 8:45pm

i probably shouldn't talk. i'm no psychologist. and i can't relate terribly well. i sort of know how you feel, but not to the extent that you do. i just hate to see people like this, and want to help. but i really can't.


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