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| m&ms487 (profile) wrote, on 9-30-2003 at 6:37pm | |
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| Have you ever had someone do something to you that made you feel like they own you, like you have no say and they are the stronger one. Have you ever felt degraded? I thought i had, until today. I am not going to name any names, or say where and when this took place, other than in school today, but i just wanted to write this down so i never forget how he made me feel. I thought in the beginning that he just was a cool guy, with some good ideas. Then he started looking at me, that's ok, people do that. Today we were together and he kept bumping into me. I wasn't sure if he thought i was leading him on or not...i wasn't intentionally, if i was. So he kept bumping into me and like pushing me where he wanted me to go (that's fine, i'm use to "physical" people, and i thought he was just playing around), then when he pushes me he starts touching my ass...i'm like, ok, maybe he was just in the wrong spot at the wrong time...so i go and take a few steps away and he comes and stands by me and like pushes me over to my chair, and he got pretty close to the chest area... anyway, so later i'm standing back up and he comes and stands by me and pats me on the stomach (pretty low if ya know what i mean), and that was just it for me because i knew he did that on purpose, so i like go stand away..then we were doing classwork (can't tell you what it was b/c then you'd know what class) and he thinks he's still playing around and he slaps me on the face...now that shit, i don't take from anyone..so i get up in his face and i was like "seriously dude, you NEVER do that to me", and he could tell i was pissed, but he still like tried to stand by me and i guess be physical. That is just a gross misuse of a human being. For everyone that reads this, especially guys, you will never know how small, how controlled over you can be until it actually happens, and it's scary, and the only control over it you have it to tell them right to there face, NO, don't do that. Although i told him not to do that, i still have this feeling that it didn't get across, and that it might happen again.. and it's the worst feeling in the world. Michelle |
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.j.e.s.s. | 09-30-03 9:59pm wow, I'm glad you didn't put up with his crap. What a jerk. |
| m&ms487 | Re:, 10-01-03 8:00pm Thanx, it was better today, but thanx for your comment on the situation anyway. |
Napkins | 10-02-03 8:06pm Just have sex with him already tease. |