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Upchuck (profile) wrote,
on 10-3-2003 at 8:55pm
Current mood: content
Music: "In The Light" DC Talk
Subject: Again
I saw it again. I heard it again. All those familiar things that she used to do and say to me. I see, she knows I heard it. It was to someone else. He was a little more obvious about it, but she tries to make it so I don't know. But I know.
The same reactions. What was once mine should always be mine kind of reaction, a jealous reaction. Then I picture them together. Not together together, just together in a certain situation. And I just get more and more angry.
I always have felt that way towards anyone who was like that with her. I didn't like anyone she choose, well except for one. I know that they treated her right. But for the first time i was finally able to accept who she was with. I got outside information that said that they were decent, despite the seemingly contradictory evidence I got from her. I accepted that. I didn't accept how she treated them though, it wasn't fair, and now I wish I hadn't been a part of that.
But all these feelings just flow out of me normally, always have and I thought they always will. I can't shrug off and ignore those things that happen, but I can control myself. I can let those feelings go. And I did tonight. No one believes me, how powerful He can be. How He can help. But those feelings are gone now. Now all I feel is pity for them, because I know they can know, but they don't. He is awesome, that is all I can say.




Shout out to all you kiddies out there. Brianna, you should come tomorrow, celebrate your roots. Jessa, don't get down, be who you are and not what we expect you to be. And don't worry, all good things come to an end, if it is truly the end. Peace out.
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mystickittie

10-03-03 11:00pm

who are you talking about?

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Upchuck

Re:, 10-04-03 6:14pm

Wouldn't you like to know?

Nothing I say seems to get your attention, except when you think it's about you.

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mystickittie

Re: Re:, 10-08-03 6:59am

whatever

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Upchuck

Re: Re: Re:, 10-08-03 2:24pm

Yeah, whatever.

Why do we always need to piss each other off right about this time of year. Were you expecting something from me this weekend? I've decided to stop living in the past, sorry.

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mystickittie

Re: Re: Re: Re:, 10-08-03 9:54pm

i wasn't expecting a damn thing from you this weekend and i don't want anything from you! I just asked a simple a fucking question...don't get a cock in your ass...geez

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Upchuck

Re: Re: Re: Re: Re:, 10-09-03 6:15pm

Well this is just a simple observation, but I think your mad.

Oh yeah, no shit Sherlock.

I guess that the last comment did seem a little adversarial. I didn't mean it to be.

I didn't mean of it sound like it did. You know what problems I have about being misunderstood by my words.

:) Smile :)

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mystickittie

Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re:, 10-10-03 4:09pm

ya...i was a lil mad at those comments and the one on steph's journal....but it's okay now.......






**Smiles back**

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Upchuck

Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re:, 10-12-03 2:41pm

If your going to put it that way, you're not mad at me. Why did you avoid me all day?

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mystickittie

Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re:, 10-12-03 8:23pm

i just had things on my mind...like my solo...the quintet.,..the whole show. I didn't mean to avoid you...you rode a different bus as me and i sat in the stands we wern't supposed to sit in...we just wern't in the same places at the same time.

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Upchuck

Lunch, 10-15-03 7:42am

Did you enjoy lunch? Would you like to have lunch again?

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mystickittie

Re: Lunch, 10-15-03 2:53pm

you want to have lunch?

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Brianna

10-04-03 11:36am

if you come Charlie, I will! :D

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