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| echoingremorse (profile) wrote, on 10-7-2003 at 1:22pm | |
| Current mood: blah |
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| Today was blah.. This keyboard is wicked fucked up though.. i only can right 2 "."s in a row.. and i can only pres backspace once before i have to highlight everything i want to delete and pres backspace again.. wow. this is wicked hard. and when ever i pres butons i can hear this weird little sound. damn it. anyways. today has been ok.. except. actualy now that ive gone back and seen all the letters missing from my words this keyboard cant have any key pressed more then once in a row..and then you have to try realy hard to get the second one.this is so random but its pissing me off. today kinda feels like hate todd day.. i dont know why.. but i feel so lonely. kinda makes me want to cry.. some kid thought i was mental retarded.. just becuase of how i look. that didnt feel good.. and it wouldnt hurt so much if i knew that wasnt true. but maybe it is.. blah. like i always thought of myself as a nice guy. but. if i am why else wouldnt i have a gf. really. to what purpose was i born this way. like. i look at myself in the mirror outside. and all i see is a person that is kinda not all there in his head. maybe everyone that doesnt know me sees me in that way. i dotn know how i can not look like this.and i know looks are not everything. and i know even my friends know that changing is not the answer. but their not ugly. so what would they know. like. they all have bf or gf. and im alone. ive never had a gf. its oblviously becuase people dont like dating people that can be confused for being mental;y retarded. i wouldnt. thats for sure. and the beggining of this journal entry only proves that im fucked up. i guess im going to go out and look in that mirror in the hall some more to maybe find something attractive about me. but im grateful for those people that looked passed my face. and atleast i can think of them.. maybe someday i wont look like this. but thats only a dream. and they tend to not come true. | |
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| Anonymous | 10-08-03 9:25pm hey.. theres nothing wrong with the way you look at all and anyone who confuses you for retarded is retarded themselves.. you're a pretty cool guy and dont let anyone tell you otherwise :) |
echoingremorse | Re:, 10-09-03 8:28am lmao... awww..thanks.. im trying to figure out who you are..either your jayme (becuase you dont use woohu anymore)..or maybe your erin..or..maybe your just some really nice person i dotn know...either way thank you :)... |