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| Kandy (profile) wrote, on 10-13-2003 at 8:36pm | |
| Current mood: depressed Music: "Paper Heart" All American Rejects Subject: ...... life.. in general |
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| well. so far so good??? NOT! God it seems like this past week has been nothing but a struggle or curse. I've had so many things happen. Last tuesday was on of the worst days of this year if not my life as I remember it. We'll leave it at something bad happened to a close friend. And so wednesday was crappy till i went to james' and was able to forget about it all if only for a little bit. Then James and I fought thursday and friday about what to me were/are minor things. And yet today we fought again. Then I spent like 20 some minutes talking to Tony trying to help him. And I'm getting sick of all ya guys getting mad at each other over stupid little things. Yes sometimes you really have the right to. But others I feel your way out of line. Like I told Tony tonight, sometimes it seems like ya'll are worse than girls. *half chuckle* Oh and to make the rest of my "relationship" troubles worse james keeps forgetting to call. That I so unlike him. I'm starting to wonder tho seriously if something of some kind isn't up. And like as for Chris I thank you for doing that lil name thing in your journal cause that's what I hope to happen right about now. The odd thing is even though I've been more careful about my driving since like last thrusday or so... I've almost gotten into a TON of accidents. It's like my life here isn't going to be much longer. *shrugs* theres a few people that would actually effect. All the rest would be like "aww...HELL YEAH!" But I really don't care anymore. My hair is a semi statement of that *partial giggle* people didn't really liek it when I frist got it and I was like "oh Fucking well" I don't give a damn like i used to. I'm sick of being who people want me to be. I want to be what I want to be. But then I lose everyone I ever cared about. Whats the joy and me-ness in that? I hate hurting anyone. But I also hate being ordered around to much, at the same time i hate being the one to give the orders. Good god. I want to just hide and waste life away under the covers of my bed with my little puppy next to me. Even then I dont' know if she'd stay with me. No one really has. There has been one person i can really remark upon about not leaving me. And I think that person knows who he is. But right now I think I'll sit around waiting for the phone that won't ring and just debate on where my life is going and how i'm going to deal with the new troubles thrown my way. *sighs* well.... adios ya'll. Maybe I'll see ya again. | |
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box | .., 10-14-03 10:35pm "There has been one person i can really remark upon about not leaving me And I think that person knows who he is"
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Kandy | Re: .., 10-17-03 10:21pm yeah that was you. you really stuck by me.. even though you didn't like what i did and maybe was even mad at me.... you still stayed with me. I thank you. and I'm sorry......... |