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| andi (profile) wrote, on 10-13-2003 at 9:09pm | |
| Current mood: OPEN Subject: Who I really am, or what I know about me... |
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| I came to realization the other night that NO one knows the real me. But who can blame you? I don't even know the real me....But I would like to tell you the real me or at least what I know of myself at this moment b/c I'm still on the long dusty road of getting to know me b/c some of you know, I have lost myself over the summer..... ONE thing I want you to all know is that I have a major desire and I am determined to be diffrent from everyone. Set myself apart from them. I actually wanna be that weird girl in the corner. I know I am picky about people having the same crap as me or saying teh stuff that i say. But dude(s) son't u understand? When I was little I wanted to take up sk8brding and drums just b/c not alot of girls do it. I wanna do and have stuff thta no one has. Impossible? Yes and NO. It's just my goal in life. I wanna feel and BE different. But a good different.I feel trapped and I cna't breathe when I can't be a different someone. So you want me to stop being a bitch about you or someone else talking and having the same stuff and doing the same crap? then DON'T do it. I would be very happy if you stop.... Another thing is I'm stubborn. If i think I'm right or have a strong point. I wont back down unless if i don't it'll lead to something bad. But it varies.. 3rd thing I actually don't get mad or hate ppl unless they do the certain things that will get me that way. Like goin behind my back. That will really get me pissed and wanna choke you and hope to die. Another is being something your not. Whose worth working ur ass off for being something that's fake n e ways?? Another well.....i'm not gonna go there. 4th I believe in GOD. I try to be a good christian. There is really nuttin to live for on the Earth. I fall back to being a "bad christian" just b/c of my surrondings. But I try, but not my hardest. Right now I am heading to hell b/c I haven't been baptized. I did when I was lil but that actually doesn't count b/c it wasn't my choice. Hell....geez that's scary to me. 5th I don't get scared too easily. It's just all fun and games to me. 6th I like to do crazy stuff. But I may not do it if there will be a bad outcome. 7th I don't take a lot of things personal. Sorry to say but if I'm in a fight w/ someone and w/ their "evil" comments to me and them trying to get me pissed or feel bad I laugh. I just find it funny. I guess b/c I don't take it personal b/c it's all in an opinion. It what ppl think about me, but it's not what i think about me sometimes. 8th I do some-what care what ppl think about me to the extent. Just b/c i care doesn't mean I will change myself for them. I also don't think if i do this what will they think of me then?? They don't like it then w/evas. 9th I can say somethings that are mean to ppl w/out me knowing it. I just don't think ppl will take it in that way. 10th I hate ppl being immature, grow up!!! We're how old now? 2? It bugs me when ppl can't even go up and talk to a guy or a girl and make a big deal. That also falls into I hate drama queens. We don't need them in the world. I if i have n e more of me's i'll let u know b/c I can't stand it when ppl don't get stuff about me but i don't even know some stuff about me... AndI p.s. A journal always has a first step. |
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tubularchick88 | known, 10-14-03 6:38pm i knew those things |
xscarred21x | interesting, 10-16-03 5:02pm i would like to get to know YOU better. so what are you doing this weekend. woah that just sounded like a pickup line!ha
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