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| mle (profile) wrote, on 3-14-2002 at 7:17pm | |
| Current mood: nauseous/dizzy Music: ill nino - what comes around (total kick ass song!!) Subject: just another day in the life of mle |
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| but yea.. 2nd day of soccer tryouts and i broke down in tears b/c i felt like i was playing so bad. i was seriously just going to quit in fairness to the rest of the team.. then coach told me to stick w/ it - hes saving me a spot on the team. i wanted to cry from happiness/relief. i havent been that happy in months... but, of course, it didnt last long... i want to just throw up my stomach. yuck. food. full. guilty. lazy. shoot me now. god, i disappoint myself beyond belief. not only am i killing myself physically (or so im told), im killing myself more psychologically. not to mention i plan my day around you. you are my control, my freedom, my anti-drug. you make me feel better than anything else in the world. love hurts. and i love you. *mle* |
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spud | 03-18-02 9:01pm soccer? i didn't know you were into soccer. get into a different school, and you could probably letter your freshmen year. i did. but, you couldn't be a freshmen anymore. scratch that. i want to play JV next year, anyway. i couldn't keep up with the varsity guys. |
| mle | Re:, 03-18-02 10:28pm soccer - yea. im still bummed but oh well. i went to 2 out of 5 tryouts and got a spot on jv, but i was upset about the coach's decisions, and plus it wont work w/ my schedule (itd b SO crazy!) so i gave it up. *sniffle* but coach says im always welcome back next year for @ least jv (if i cant make varsity) who knows...
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