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| JediBumblebee (profile) wrote, on 10-30-2003 at 10:44pm | |
| Current mood: listless Music: Eels- Mr. E's Beautiful Blues Subject: The elephant won't forget what its like inside his cage... |
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| i feel inspired to write something a bit longer tonite, than my normal single-sentence quips. I read other people's journals and it makes me wonder if my babblings might actually make sense to those who read them. if anyone reads them... I saw a play tonite...really it was no good but it made me think. it was a religious play, but thats not the part that got me thinking... there was this girl who was in a class of mine last semester, and she was in it. i didnt think she really did all that great of a job, actually she didnt seem to fit her role one bit.... but even so, and considering the play as a whole was awful, i was sitting there thinking "god, i wish i were her right now". i wish my parents hadn't told me that being a theater major was ridiculous. everyone in their right mind knows that i'm miserable in the business college, and that's why i'm working my ass off for a second major that holds some merit for me. but i really couldnt see myself happy. not like this. great sex isn't really a theater production. yes, i enjoy doing it. yes i am glad i decided to be in it. but its like having just a taste of what theater used to be for me, and knowing i'll never get the full flavor of it again. facing last night took a lot of strength that i didnt know i had. i guess that's what friends do for you, right? its been a long, long time. and i'm tearing my hair out again, thats depressing. maybe i should go see a doctor...someday..... I had something in me...i can't get it back, or get rid of it either... to end this post with something really deep... I could really go for some pizza right now. |
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Upchuck | 10-31-03 6:02pm It's natural for us to question the path that it seems like we travel for the rest of our lives. I've many times contemplated dropping the social sciences and going into business. It's college so explore. I know the business school is often pretentious, but don't let them keep you from wasting your time on things you want to waste your time on. |