I like to make accounts at those matchmaking and dating websites, just to see if I can find anyone I know. I did recently which I found to be quite amusing. I set up an account at Emode and earlier today I received an email saying that five members were interested in meeting me, it seems. I laughed. Curiously, I checked the email and the 'matches' were less than exciting, but still pretty amusing. The ages of the guys were 22, 23, 27 (who looked like 14), 45, and 48. Big umm. My profile clearly states that I am 18. Then again, it also clearly states that I am looking for 'New Friends' and I suppose if you look at it in that light age doesn't matter. But then I looked at the 48 year old's profile and saw:
In my bedroom, you'd find:
Whips,Chains,Handcuffs,LOL...Not really just thought it would be funny.
No, man, that's not funny. He's older than my father so for some reason it's hard for me to think that little comment is funny. He looks like Tom Green twenty years down the road though. I guess it makes sense in some nonsensical way. But, I don't know, older people need lovin' too right? Whips, chains, whatever. I still shudder just thinking about that.
I probably won't reply back to their interests though. I have no common ground for any of the guys. I just want a casual friendship. It kind of gets boring that I only have one person to phone if I'm ever bored. ;)
Hmm, well, speaking of the whole dating thing.. (which comes off as completely random because I removed a whole paragraph before this) whenever I'm asked about dating my response is negative. It's negative because I've never had a good relationship. :) Makes sense. And it's not some "one negative experience" thing, I've never had a bad dating experience either. I don't shun dating because of any experience, I'm just lazy. :) I don't want to look for someone worthy of my affection, rightright. ;) Heh.
So, I've read a few Woohu journals that belonged to Irish people. That was fun. One girl even typed how she may have talked, using me for my and such. I laughed a bit at that.
Talked with my parents earlier today as well. We seem to be having a lot of talks these days. The world is falling apart and it feels like it's all originating on the front steps of this house. Why can't my parents just say fuck it and move on with life? I don't see why they make such tiny problems explode into a life crisis. But the talk was kind of comical. My father and I usually add a lot of sarcasm and jokes in these 'serious' talks involving my mother, because she never gets our jokes. Like, I asked my mother why she cared so much about my sister living in someone else's house, asking her to move back in with us, and yet she constantly tells me she wished I moved out. I sense favoritism. I sense child neglect, too. ;) But that's another story. My mother tried to deny it and my father laughed saying it was all too true. Yea, and it was funny somehow.
Too many different topics into this entry. I'm kind of tired. I noticed that I am extremely tired these days and I hardly eat a thing. And I loooove my food. :( I still have a headache, it seems to toggle on and off, and I wish I could find the source of it. I'm starting to lose interest in drawing, in coding, in reading. I'll still write though. :) Hurray for writing. Maybe I just need to do some more exercises or something.
I've kind of been thinking about one of my brother's friends that was over during Halloween. He stopped by again the following day and we watched some movie that I won't name because it sucked. He's pretty nice to me. He'll still talk to me even if someone put a scrunchie in my hair, like a sideways pony tail but only taking a small portion tied up, and he'll eat the Halloween candy he trick-or-treated most of for me, and he'll make lewd comments whenever there's a 'hot' scene on the television. He's funny. He seems so much different from when I used to talk to him, two years ago. We were in the same class and wrote notes to each other so fucking much that I think I was the cause of him failing his tests. ;) But he didn't complain and so I felt bad. Heh. I've known him for a few years now and I think it's good to have a guy who I can talk to without feeling like he's going to ask me out. I hate that. I hate being friends with a guy and they later want something more. Greedy little buggers. But he's pretty cool. He knows a lot about weapons and stuff like that, haha, always a plus right?
Isn't it weird looking back a few years to how some people used to look like? This guy was a little chubby when I first was introduced to him, through his sister, but just in the last two years he's completely different. It's like those stories you might read in, well, books about childhood friends of the opposite gender growing up to become girlfriend and boyfriend and then later husband and wife. And the marriage works because they've known each so long as to have already mentally concluded that whatever flaws existed were outweighed by the better qualities they each shared. Of course, that's not how I feel about this guy, but it's just a thought. |
Chatted with Kartman earlier on Lost Legends and he seems like a decent person. Heh, that sounds so completely rude. He seems like a nice person. We talked about video games for a bit, but what made me first talk with him was something he mentioned on chat. He commented there being a myth that if you taped a book to your head you could memorize its contents. I commented back about Edgar Cayce, who actually did do this and without ever reading a text book had aced all of his school tests. So I think Kartman and I were going to try that tonight, if we both remember. I am absolutely positive that we won't share similar results to Cayce, simply because he was a prodigy, but maybe I'll at least have a dream about the book stamped onto my forehead in the morning. Now I just need to figure out which book I want to try this with.. Crimes and Punishment seems a little too morbid huh. Life in the Renaissance it is. ;) |
