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silentcriez (profile) wrote,
on 11-4-2003 at 10:03pm
im feeling majorly deppressed tonite

ive written so much poetry it isnt even funny

iw anna publish mystuff but compared to my sisters my shit is like crap. hers is soo good and deep and meaningful and when i try n write about how i feel it always comes out dark and negative liek im gonna kill myself or somebody else...

shits been pretty sucky schools not going too well.. im scared for my grades....

and meg ugh meg... reading her journal makes me sick... she talks abotu how she doesnt want ppl to judge her and shit and there she is saying that im a bad person becuz im fat, yes im chubby but that doesnt mean there arent otehr aspects about me that are favorable... i mean god dammit hwo much more shallow can you be

and youc ant do something liek she did to me and expect every1 to feel bad for you

shes a friggen psycho and i dont want to friggin have teh damn "peer mediation" shti with her i dont wanna talk to her shes a bitch and i hate her.. with all of my remaining heart

half of what i wroite about is becuz of teh hate i feel towards her and my mom and teachers and everything in life thats been stressing me

fuck it this sucks
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Anonymous

11-05-03 2:03pm

ok..i admitt what i said about you being fat was immature and stupid..so yah w/e and what i wrote was just me being mad, and im not asking you 2 forgive me, and belive i hate you 2, and i didn't ask them 2 do a peer mediation so dont fucking blame me, and you no i dont really care what you say about me ,call me psycho w/e maybe i am so fucking screw u bitch
and oh yah i dont want you 2 feel bad for me, so dont say that i do, i really dont need ppl 2 feel bad for me, and if your going 2 say stupid stuff about what i write in my journal..then dont read it idiot, your the 1 that wants ppl 2 feel bad for you so dont say i am, ur a fucking follower, get a life

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Anonymous

11-05-03 2:07pm

oh ya..and i never said u were a bad person because you were fat, so dont say i did, and call me and idiot but i think u need 2 relize wtf ur doing, cuz ur screwing up your life

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Anonymous

Re:, 11-05-03 9:14pm

YA whoooos screwing up their life? look in the mirror hunny. i dont think mandas the one gettin herself into shit she cant even fess up to..thats real mature. if ur gonna say or do shit then just fucking admit that u did it. if ur too fucking scared of wat ppl will think of u then..maybe u should think about wat ur doin before u do it.

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silentcriez

Re:, 11-05-03 9:51pm

how the hell am i the one screwing up my life? your the one writign shit on bathroom stalls, was it worth it meg? did u get what u wnated out of it, i hope so becuz u screwed everything up for yourself...

and u cant blame it on anyone else anymore... your actions made u the way u are and put u in teh situation your in

as i preach to you right now, i hope your angry i hope you hate me, becuz it makes it all that better for me. becuz getting you angry means that what im saying is right and you know it. so.. your gonna run away from NHS. and go to Sudburry Valley... oh yeah your strong enuff to make it thru pain...

your just figuring all; this shit out in your journal preaching toeveryone else how to be happy when you dont know shit about being happy.. acting liek your some shrink.. when your the one that needs a fucking shrink. i couldnt even begin to fathom what goes on in your head...

what you do and what you say hurts you. think about what you do before you do it. becuz allthough u may regret shit, you cant take it back... dont waste whats left of your life....

- regards -

amanda maltz

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Anonymous

Re: Re:, 11-05-03 10:12pm

hmm whats left of my life..wow shut tha fuck up your the 1 that gets high every fuckin day, and then you were saying how u were gunna "kick my ass" well i havent seen that happen. and im not running away from NH i just dont like it and i dont liek tha teachers or tha ppl who talk so much shit and dont so anything about it..like u, and u no wat it was stupid 2 write that but ur rite i cant take it back now but w/e. and you dont no shit aout me so stop saying i dont no what ahpy is, just stay out of my fucking life and stop reading my fucking journal and making stupid comments that make NO sence at all because u DONT no me u never did and never will so stop trying 2 understand. and im not angry bcuz of what u say, im sngry becuase of what ur doing and who ur turning into.

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Anonymous

Re: Re: Re:, 11-05-03 10:56pm

hmmm. lets see meg... maby mandas not kickign ur ass but tomorrw i sure will b bitch u better run away from NH cuz no one likes u and im not the only one who could care less wehter ur alive or dead, i think about THE WHOLE SCHOOL agrees with me u dumb cunt.... so do us all a foavor and die already!!!! and wtf are u talkiing anout manda somkin weed everyday!? she don't u dumb lame ass cunt get a fucking brain and then try to make fun of ppl!!!! ur a fucking hipacrit and no one likes u sooo shut the fuck up no one cares about ur sorry ass!!! don't forget u wana say shit ill fuckin KILL u tomorrw lets see what ur made off bitch!!! u know ud b on the ground crying so bring it or shut the fuck up cunt!!!!
Lizzy!

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silentcriez

Re: Re: Re:, 11-05-03 11:00pm

first off i dont get high everyday... i havent smoked in a long time.. and i dont and wont spend my money on it or go out of my way to get it.... so dont pass judgements upon me.. you dont know me either

and what i said was if i saw you and u pisssed me off it might get violent but didnt see you did i? noo...

if your not runnign away from NHS then why dont you come on back and earn your stance there again... cuz right now you dont belong there...

how teh hell does my entry not make sense? it makes perfect sense... maybe your brain is too slow tpo process what ive said.... hmmm.. interesting...

with you, with you its different... you think you know everything.. your blinded by your god damn pride... cuz no1 can ever help you cuz u know it all..you wouldnt be half as deep under as you are now if you didnt have so mich damn pride

how teh hell am i turnign into something? your teh one turnign into some sort of demon nobody knows... everyone comes up to me asking me what happened "little meaghan fahey did that? shes changed so much" same shit over and over again...

SPELL FUCKING SENSE RIGHT GOD DAMMIT.

and dont go telling your parents and mrs bertucci that i was mean to you and thats why you did what u did becuz u and i both knwo thats not the case...

well.. see you tomorrow...

-Best Wishes-

Your Best Enemy


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silentcriez

Re: Re: Re: Re:, 11-05-03 11:03pm

p.s. Im brave enuff to keep these comments up.. unlike you...

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Anonymous

Re: Re: Re: Re: Re:, 11-05-03 11:08pm

I FUCKIN LOVE AMANDA!!! AND I AGREE WITH EVERYTHING SHE SAYS ABOUT THAT DUMB BITCH!!! AND WHO WAQS THE ONE WHO HATED THIS CUNT FRO THE BEGINNING!!!?? WHO!!?? ME BITCH I NEVER LIKED U AND ALL UR FRIENDS FINALY FIGURED HOW GAY AND FAKE AND FUCKIN NASTY U R!!!! I AL WAYS KNEW AND I ALWAYS WILL!!!!! STILL LOOKING TO TALK SHIT CUZ U REALLY OUT ME IN THE MOOD TO FUCK U UP CUNT IM READY OR ARE U TOOO FUCKIN SCAIRED!!!! HMMM LEST C I THINK EVERYONE KNOWS THAT ANSWER PAUSSY ASS BITCH!!!
Lizzy!

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Anonymous

Re: Re: Re: Re: Re:, 11-06-03 4:12pm

your a fuckin pussy grow up

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Anonymous

Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re:, 11-06-03 4:21pm

take your fuckin nose ring out bitch cuz your just makin your self look like and ass hole evan more!

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