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| HollishDanishM (profile) wrote, on 11-5-2003 at 7:01pm | |
| Current mood: sympathetic Music: Prototype- Outkast Subject: Crrrush |
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| I think I am developing a crush. Just a little one, but it still goes down as a crush. I wonder, what the exact definition is for that anyway. But I already tried looking it up, and it only says the correct definition; something about crushing something into pieces. That's way different. I just love that feeling, all tingly inside. It feels so good. That's how I feel right now, I love it. I didn't have this feeling for a long time, the last time I did was about a month ago. It's nice that this feeling is back. The guy I have developed this crush on is so sweet. He is actually one of my friend's friends's friends. Ya, I kno it's kind of far out but you understand what I am saying right? I haven't even met him yet, but this weekend will be a lucky one. It is going to be so akward this thing, and it's bad that I have already developed a crush on him. We will see what happens though. I am just in love with this feeling, it feels so good. On a sadder note... One of our family friends, Manfred, is dying of cancer. The doctors say he onyl has about a week yet. I cried when I heard, it's not fair. He has young kids, four and twelf, it's just not cool. I love him so much, I grew up by his side basically. He was always there to help me with my problems, and now he is almost gone. I can't believe I am probably never going to see him. Here is one of those cases where I wish I had lots of money, so I could just go to Demark right now and see him. Death shouldn't be part of life like this, and him dying is really starting to hit me now. Tears are already running down my cheeks. I cried for the first time in a really long time today, and it actually helped. I always, kind of, got annoyed at those people that cry all the time but it really helps when you're sad. I feel a little better now, but not a lot. So to you, Manfred, I hope you'll be watching me from wherever you're going. I'll always love you, and I'll miss you dearly. Thoughts your way. R.I.P Manfred. ((Hopefully the doctors are going to save hi, but I doubt it. They can do nothing. But maybe a miracle will happen. I really hope so. I'll do anything.)) |
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dough | hey, 11-05-03 9:52pm hey mette sorry for your loss- u know that i can totally relate to you about this--ive had so many losses in my life...but eventually what matters the most is the memories that they have left with you...
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HollishDanishM | Re: hey, 11-05-03 9:56pm Aww, that was totally sweet. Whoo, just sounded like a brat.
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