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| pinkpenguin (profile) wrote, on 10-15-2002 at 10:25pm | |
| Current mood: crappy Music: jane's addiction- jane says Subject: "Jane says.........." |
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::::: It's not that I am trying to make you unhappy. It's not that I'm trying to only think of myself. I'm considering your feelings, but not really caring. I'm sorry, but that's the truth. But only because you don't understand. No, I do care. I care about your feelings. Of course I do. That's not what I meant. I'm not trying to think of my feelings first. But its just that, it matters SO much more to me, than it does to you. I already know. You may think that you care. But believe me, it is nothing compared to me. You think you care about a lot of things. It's just bull shit. A bunch of false feelings. I already know you. I know how you operate. I know that your feelings aren't real. I know you think it matters to you. But in a month, maybe even a week or 3 days it won't. That's just how you are. But it will matter to me for practically.....ever. I'm sorry, but I can't get over it. Why did you have to get involved in the first place. I mean before you were so mad, and then now it changes. I'm sorry, I'm not saying that what you feel doesnt matter. But you just think you care a lot more than I know you do. Deep inside I know you just want something. But not a specific. So why does it have to be this something. Choose a different something. Please. Because I know you could be happy as long as you had something. So just pick something else. There's plenty others. You know it and I know it. And I know it doesnt seem like it now. But I know how you change so quickly. So in a while, you won't care. But see, if you went for this; I couldn't just be like "okay, its all good" because it really really really wouldn't be. I'm sorry. I can't change the way I feel about things. Believe me I've tried. I've tried just forgetting and pretending like it didnt matter to me anymore. But it's hard to lie to yourself. Please, just don't think I am heartless and uncaring. I'm really not. I just can't explain it to you. But I really think that someday you will understand too. I'm sorry. ::::: |
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everyfallingday | 10-16-02 10:16am smart |
spud | 10-16-02 3:01pm i'm sure to sound mean when i say this. but i can't find a nice way.
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glitterkisses | Re:, 10-17-02 6:08am Jess, I just want you to know. Someday you're going to look back on all of this...and just laugh it all off. You're going to see..that what you thought once was the most important thing in the world to you heart's desire, won't be even close to your heart anymore. You're an amazing person, and you can get anyone you want. But when it comes to getting what you *truly* want make it something that counts. Not something you think will still make you happy, or might still make you feel that love, but something that you KNOW you can trust. Were only freshman in high school, there are so many more people you will find. So many more people you'll like. And Definatly so many more people you'll fall in love with. No matter how impossiable that seems. It'll happen. I promise. And all though she may be one of you're bestfriends, and it will be hard, maybe this will be a way for you to over come you're feelings. And cross that bridge, you've been tip toeing back and forth on for so long. And you *always* know you have my support and many more. Lov ya Jess! |
pinkpenguin | 10-17-02 6:25am
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