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| H2OforDuo (profile) wrote, on 11-17-2003 at 10:02pm | |
| Current mood: frustrated Subject: well your still doing it!...But it's okay... (Yeah right) |
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| So I was bothering my sister after she hellped me with my math homework and she's all like "You're really bothering me!" So I leave and tell Mum that Aimee is peeved with me or whatever so she says to leave her alone. So I come back into the office and I say "I'm sorry about pestering you..." and she says "Well your still doing it!" and walks into the kitchen for dinner and calls "but It's okay..." Yeah right. Other than that my brain is on overload and shit, so I cna't think stright or use my usual wit in my posts. Ah, fuck. I hear Luci crying... Anyway...I refused to go to sleep last night because I was pissed at the way I was being treated as dirt. "You should do exacrly as they say so you wont get Dad's haert rate up" or some such shit like that. They should wory about ME for once! Gods almighty! I'm halucinating to the max, which might I add is geting WORSE every day, And they're all like "Yea, lets see how many pills we can put you on before you fucking explode!". I got two more pills today. One of them I had once before and the effect was hidious. We're starting me on a lower dose this time. *Death glare* That's soooooooooooooo differant! Oh, and Tiffany is now "Ti Fanny, her Roayal Hinie-Ass" I came up with the title my self. Go me. ¬¬ I seel -so- special *It just oozes with sarcasm, doesn't it? Oi. It's dripping on the floor. Big Whoop-de-doo* I watched my tape of our class play of Oz (Which I titled my self) and I got all depressed. I Miss them so much! Shit, now I'm on the verge of tears...And you could never really see Alex N.'s face. I miss al the boys in partiqular. We were comrades. I miss that a lot. *Sigh* and now we're back to the wishing for love thing. If only if only the wood pecker sighs, the bark on the tree was a little bit softer...I know it's from Holes but it was a good book, and I find the poem fits my depressed mood. Nothing seems to be going right for me... Ah...Hello, Halucination. Hello, Voices that I cannot quite hear...Hello, Blobs and Ghosts and such...Hello wishes to self harm that I am finding harder and harder to resist...No blades...Just my fingernails..No blood, no conspiquous mess...Hello...Hello...Goodbye...I wish...All go away... I need somone to catch me when I fall...I fear this will be soon...I need someone to hold me...To love me...To catch me when I fall... Hello... Hello.... Goodbye.... ~Caro, The Lost |
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14outtanone | to catch you, 11-18-03 10:49am I wish I could be there. To catch you when you fall...to hold you when you felt alone...to be your -long lost- sistah (not like your family, more like your foster)... Just hhold on... I'm still working on my mum, so far, I think it's impossible, but you never know... I found Widdle-Abby today, so my luck might be changing... *rubs widdle abby on your face* |
H2OforDuo | Re: to catch you, 11-18-03 7:20pm you have no idea how much that means to me...Or maybe you do.
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