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| echoingremorse (profile) wrote, on 11-18-2003 at 8:21pm | |
| im sooo bored right now... im just doing random stuff, even though i could be doing my hw right now... blah... hmmm... my ftj is down pretty low....gah... its down to "6.019"... thats like the # i give people when i find them unattractive but dont like giveing low scores :-/.... hmmm... damn it.. maybe this whole FTJ account idea wasnt a good idea... its kinda sad.... i never thought i was attractive, i know im not.. soo its not liek im loseing something, but it still hurts just the same... kinda gets rid of any shreads of hope that i was wrong and my friends were kind enough to give me... but oh well.. and yeah, not really "oh well".. well atleast i have my personalitity.... i dont know how my personalitlity is.. if its a nice one or bad one... from what i jsut typed probly a bad one... im like EVERY turn off imaginable and i hate myself for it which is another turn off.. circles and circles.....blah... people are always telling me "todd, you just have to know that your your own person".. or "you just have to grow up alittle, get rid of those issues"... and that doesnt fuckin help. all i want is to be happy liek all these other people around me..why hasnt someone jsut walked into my life... all i want is to meet someone that im interested in and that is interested in me.... someone that im always going to be able to go to... and is always goign to come to me....a companion.. the second that happens im not going to care about any of this shit... it will all go away and then i can jsut move on without doign all of the stupid shit inbetween and be happy... i meen.. i have done the whole "im my own person thing" and it work on and off..... people better not give me fuckin shit for this entry... or i will be really pissed... even if its the turth... dotn tell me.......i know what they are goign to say... "todd, you are very immature, the world doesnt revolve around you... you need to grow up...".."todd, if you did that youd just be running away from what you have to do, and youd only be useing someone to feel better!".... well..ITS NOTHING LIEK THAT AT ALL!! if someone came to me and i fell for them i woudlnt fuckin just wlak off becuase i was happy... i wouldnt walk away from the person that would change my life and be my whoel world... i would never do that... i dont see where thiat would be usineg them... seroiusly... that fact that id feel better is only a side-affect... its like sayign that loving someone is really only useing them to love.... fuck this entry... fuck me..... fuck everything.. |
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| Anonymous | 11-18-03 9:02pm dont worry about the ftj thing.. 6 isnt bad and you can probably find plenty of people even lower.. and one day youll be lucky enough to find a companion like that.. and even if you dont think so, you are attractive and you do have a nice personality.. thats two plusses for you, things will brighten up :) |
| fallnangel732 | Re:, 11-18-03 9:22pm OKAY strange person... why are you stalking Todd? |
Anonymous | Re: Re:, 11-19-03 5:01pm stalking? sorry.. was trying to be nice.. ill stop if it looks that way |
echoingremorse | Re:, 11-19-03 5:55pm lmao... thanks jess... atleast i think this comment was from jess...lol.. or is this el?.. or both :P.. thank you |
Anonymous | Re: Re:, 11-19-03 7:16pm it wasnt me
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| Anonymous | 11-18-03 10:27pm dont get so down about yourself, you're great looking and you seem like an awesome person.
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echoingremorse | Re:, 11-19-03 5:59pm thanks el..lol |
| Anonymous | 11-19-03 5:31pm all i want is to meet someone that im interested in and that is interested in me.... someone that im always going to be able to go to... and is always goign to come to me....a companion.. the second that happens im not going to care about any of this shit... it will all go away and then i can jsut move on without doign all of the stupid shit inbetween and be happy... i meen.. i have done the whole "im my own person thing" and it work on and off.....
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echoingremorse | Re:, 11-19-03 6:07pm lol.. thanks josh.. maybe sooner or later i will.. im jsut kinda too busy to decide somehtign that serious right now.. sorry for not going to bible study tonight... peace out
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