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| Upchuck (profile) wrote, on 10-21-2002 at 11:07am | |
| Current mood: indescribable Music: "Riff Progression in A Minor II" Charlie Campbell |
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| Is it true. Is everything that seems to be so apparent to me, apparent to everyone else too. Everyday I feel like I am losing the sense of who I am, what I am, and am being gobled up by larger groups. Instead of being defined as an individual I am defined as a member of a group. Maybe it's just the general direction my life is heading in. I'm in a hurry all the time, but not in a hurry for certain things. I do want to take things slow and I'm glad, from what I have observed that the idea is mutual. Monday, not another Monday. Our History prof promised to have our papers back to us today. No papers, we'll get them Wednesday. He's a bigger procratinator than his students are. It will be so nice when this semester is over. No more mraching band, no more Saturday class. Just Monday, Wednesday, Friday. That and I can't wait for the break in between. Time off will be so nice. Props to seniors. Last competition. Kind of a wierd instance but you'll be glad you're done. Just being there Saturday was special for me because you guys are the class I never had. The group of people who dominated every section of the band, except tuba and trumpet, and who I was able to make beautiful music with. I hope you all realize what talented muscians you are and what beautiful people you can be. I also noticed that my life can be so unpredictable. It's nice not to have fallen into a patern or a set of people. That keeps me afloat and looking for new ideas. My guess is that every tie to home is ever increasing because of what has been going on. That's where my friends and my family are and that is the one place where I believe that I can relate to people the most. Political surveys. I took a couple for my poli sci class. One said I was a libertatrian leaning left. Is that right? Or the other one that said I was conservative leaning toward authoritarian. How 'bout those beans? You tell me. My judgements are biased. Wow, these drugs really work good. It's just my Claritin, but after having a runny nose all day yesterday, I took some this morning and my nose if clear as a bell. Is this long? Too bad. It think by talking about absolutely useless things that it will help me figure out who I am while at the same time confusing the rest of you about what is going on in my life, possibly. Too many questions. I get answers and I just get more questions. To think it's been just a little over a week. My questions about that were answered and as evidence by the five hours we spent on the phone that we both know what would be going on, and it's not going too fast, but it seems to have stagnated a little bit, which could be good considering the turbulent and swiftly moving nature of my only other relationship. I do not know, therefore leave me to myself, or drop in your own ideas. |
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m&ms487 | 10-21-02 7:28pm Umm, why did u write this to sound like your gonna die any day now? Live in the present, what's gone is gone, deal with what you have now. It's good to reflect, but too much can get you in over your head. |