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| liz (profile) wrote, on 11-19-2003 at 5:33pm | |
| so over the last couple of days ive done A LOT of thinking thinking about everything thats happened in the last week. Im so hurt and confused still and I thought i could forgive and forget but I dont think I can. everytime I see you I break down a little more. and its insane how much this little thing is affecting me. i guess it wasnt so little after all. and then other stuff. that just puts everything else out of balance. and I think to myself wow Lizzy, what are you doing. what are you doing to yourself. this like depression spreads through me like hot choclate on a cold day and it never stops. and I wish I knew how to stop it. and ive fucked up other things too and I know someone is going to get hurt here. its insane. then I realize that I have two best friends. I dont know what id do without you two one of you is so there for me all the time I dont have to say anything and you say "whats wrong lizzy" I can deny that shit is wrong but you know. and i love you for it. your like a brother and i just wanted to thank you over and over then theres my girl she takes no bs if im mopey she says you look sad have some ice cream I know your eating for two. and i laugh and she says hun its not worth it. your above all this. I love you too dear. what would i do without you even if sometimes you are bitchy your no nonsense no pity attitude brings me through every time so now im sitting here with this damn bottle and im getting all this out there. where its open and contemplating to myself am i pansy or can i get through this i know i can get through this im strong but i dont know how strong anymore one more crushing thing like this could send me over and as you said chris. I know how to get what i want all i want is for this pain to be over so the question on my mind is can i do it no i cant |
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eddy | 11-20-03 3:49pm Im sorry, Liz. :( I wish i could help, but i really dont know how i could do that. Its good that you have really good friends like that though. Wish I did......... |
joslyn_julia | 11-20-03 4:26pm okay that's enough of the sentimental shit liz
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liz | Re:, 11-23-03 3:35pm I love you sweetie your too good to me |