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| glitterkisses (profile) wrote, on 11-19-2003 at 6:02pm | |
| Current mood: content Music: 3 doors down-Here without you Subject: Nothing lasts forever |
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| Hmm…where do I start? Let’s see, my love life seems good. Well there’s been a long list of guys I’ve really, truthfully liked this year. Not long as in even over 10, but around there. Every time it seems to be working out, and then something, not going to go into detail…happens. Something that could be avoidable, but clearly due to certain circumstances isn’t. Things happen, and I when I think about it, guys aren’t really what I need to be focusing on. I mean it’d be nice if I found someone who I could be with and be myself around and have a relationship with. Someone who could make every day totally worth it, but I’m not rushing. I’m still a teenager, I’m only a sophmore in high school, and even though I am growing up, it’s going to be here sooner than I know it, so why not just enjoy being a kid, and having the option of screwing up every now and then and just being a kid like I’m supouse to be, while I have the chance, rather than taking on the responsabilty of trying to be an adult right now. Now is the time I’m going to look back on when I am grown up, and I want to make sure I look back on the good stuff, not the bad. So I want to make everything fun, everything good, and not worry or care too much because that’s how you get hurt all the time. And there’s no point when what you think you’re getting hurt and upset over isn’t really anything important at all. Because in the end, it all doesn’t matter. When you’re in college, or married, or have kids, and have a job, and a house, and cars, ect to worry about is it really going to matter who you sat with at lunch, or who you dated for a month or two? Yes it will matter determining wether or not you look back on the good times or the bad, but it wont really matter. That make not make sense to most of you, but to me and the couple I want to understand, I’m sure you do. Sometimes you lose friends, but… it’s going to happen. I’ve got some of the best friends in the world, and I know that even though we have rough times, the ones I really need, will always be there, and that’s what keeps me going, and that’s what matters to me. That’s what makes me happy, my friends. lol you don’t even know. So sometimes goodbye is goodbye, and you just have to let go of things that even at one point may have brought you a lot of happiness, that are more so bringing you down. If you can’t fix something, there’s no point in keeping on trying when it’s just making you more un-happy. And that’s just how I look at it. I generally have a million reasons to be happy, and when things aren’t going my way, that’s what I need to remember. So this is how I feel about everything going on in my life right now. I’ve been doing a lot of thinking, like I always do. I’ve come to the conclusion that high school is high school, and as much as you don’t want the dumb thing of teenage life to be involved like all the gossip and choosing bad people to be friends with, all the drama and heart break, it will still happen. There isn’t much you can do about it, except just accept it, make the best of it, and just get over it, because that’s what makes looking back at the old times so good. Love Always xoxoxo <3 Jess |
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lilschaub | 11-19-03 6:20pm Makes sense. |
.j.e.s.s. | 11-19-03 7:40pm jess come over and shoot me in the head please.. just do it when i'm not looking.
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glitterkisses | Re:, 11-19-03 9:10pm aww ill call ya jess, i love you lylas papps |