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| swimfan14 (profile) wrote, on 11-20-2003 at 6:03pm | |
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| Im so confused. I swear there isn't like one time in my life when im not confused. I don't know what to do or think about anything. I was (key word: was) happy like last week and like the 2 or 3 weeks before..But now im not.....Im back to being depressed!?!?! I hate this so much....I sometimes wish I wasn't even here anymore... Like 2 of my friends are mad at me! I hate it when people are mad. Like today at lunch somebody was mad at me at the same table and I didn't even know what to say.......I just sat there and I don't even think I talked once.....I just don't ever know what to say at times like those..and I wish I did and I wish I wasn't so shy... Sometimes it reallys sucks being me. It really does... Everyone thinks my life is so perfect and easy but they have no idea....They have no clue how it is really like....My life is far from perfect.. Everything always seems to go wrong and then I always think its my fault when inside I know it isn't always my fault... I wish life was how it used to be...Fun and Easy...Its not even close to that now. I know I always say that sometimes my life sucks and yeah sometimes it does but nobody really reads this so I guess I can just express my feelings and say whatever I want. So I do....Speaking of easy...I think math is so easy I need a diffrent class b-cuz this class (core plus 1) is so frickin easy.....Its like baby work.......But yeah who gives a fuck cuz im getting a b+ in it so its all good. Haha.......................Yeah im tryin to think of something to say because as soon as I update this journal I always remember what I have to say...... I dont know but yeah im changing...... Im not the same person I used to be but it doesnt matter because im fine with the way I am right now......Im just growing up too fast....School is flying by...It sucks for me because I actually like going to school...Dont laugh....but I do.....I get to see my friends and yeah just have fun and stuff alota my classes are so easy...Most of them are...I just have to pay attention...Idk in middle school I HATED going to school but now in High School I like it.....Its cool being with older ppl....Im sick of alot of my friends so thats good about being in High School...I love my drama class. Its so much fun we have so many awesome ppl in there..... Christa Larimore, Amanda Wright,Keegan,Brie,J.d,Matt,ppbtk,ME OF COURSE, Mr. H, Molly Lindsay,Michelle (who looks like Kelly Osbourne, um britt hansen, my bestest buddy Samantha Ballew,and yeah just a whole bunch of ppl...We used to have Lil D' (danielle hanseing) untill she moved :( She made the class alota fun but its still so much fun...I feel like I can be myself and do whatever I want....We have so much in that class.....I think i spelt alot of those ppls names wrong but i have no idea how you spell them all......But yeah i gotta fly so luv ya buhbye! |
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| Anonymous | 11-21-03 3:03pm maybe your life is hard. but you have friends and a life. some people dont have many friends. you know your pretty ashley and you know you have friends. some people are real ugly and have no friends. dont complain till your in someone elses shoes like um uh mary leys for say. |