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| TheDaRkerSiDe (profile) wrote, on 10-22-2002 at 7:49pm | |
| Current mood: drained Music: Silence Subject: I dont know |
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| Who the hell had to mess up my life. I already know the andser to this one why'd I even bother. I dont do anything right, and when I do its never good enough. The constant yelling and screaming. She lives off up being miserable. I cry more than I smile. I cant think of a week that I havent ended up crying somehow. This situation is making me distand to myself and to everyone else. I hade behind a barrior of fake smiles and happieneess...but really I'm not all that happy. Who would have known that I'm part time depressed. My friends wouldnt..my parents hardly even know let alone my sister. She just doesnt realize that theres nothing she can do to make up for all the years she has just been so pushy. Shes brought sadness apon me and moms arent supose to do that. She's never hugged me unless she knows she's done something wrong. I've never heard the words "I love you" come out of her lips. All I want is for someone out there to hug me and tell me that I'm beautiful and that nothing matters. I dont have enough ambition to carry my own weight on my shoulders yet the worlds. I am 14 dammit when will the yelling stop. When will you get the fuckin balls to stop being a bitch and taking your anger out on me. There are a few people who are important in my life...few that need no names. Theres the guy: No one knows him or do they? lol. Off and on again have we talked. More lately thankfully. I miss talking to him. Hes one of the few decent guys. Who would have thought he'd pick me to be his friend. I love him for all hes worth. as a friend Then there's girl #1- Shes my chan lol The friend i never had. I wish we could hang out more and stuff. Shes a really good friend and knows how to make me laugh. We can communicate through eyebrow signals. Then theres the other girl...Shes georgous and very independent. She knows what she wants in life and knows how to ask for help or opinion. Shes very strong willed and knows all the right things to say. Then there's girl #2. I know I havent been the nices person to her and I'm still kicking myself for that. She probably means the most to me. Shes always has been kind and generous. I love her beyond words. If it wasnt fore these people I dont know what i'd do. Then theres #3. Shes my other half. We're 2 peas in a pod, we're to crocs in a baby pool lol. She goes by what she knows. Her insite on life is to not care what other people think. Shes taught me to go by the same and Kayla hun, I'm still working on it. I love u. |
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unwanted | 10-23-02 3:26pm I kind of understand what you're going through. I'm 14 also and I don't think I should go through half the shit that I do go through. Not yet anyway. However, I don't fully understand your situation, but whatever it is, I hope it turns out okay. Keep your chin up and take things one day at a time. Remember, there is always a light at the end of the tunnel, you just have to allow yourself to see it. Take care. |
sheels21489 | hi there lovely, 11-08-02 9:26am If you dont mind, whom are these people? Becuase it seems like you need a lot of them.
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thedarkerside | Re: hi there lovely, 11-08-02 9:36am If you want to know who look over and ask me who LMAO |