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| mle (profile) wrote, on 3-23-2002 at 11:55pm | |
| Current mood: drunk Music: system of a down - chop suey Subject: sirry about the typing - im kinda eh... you kno wwhat i mean ;) |
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| yea so.. hun g out w/ the weirdest combination of kids tonight. but go figger. whatever, ya know? i dont even know why iom writing in here. i dont really have antyhing to say. kathy is sick of hearing me talk about the only thing on my mind anymore and shes like the only 1 i can talk ot about it b/c everyone else eithe doesnt care or doesnt know. i told elspeth tonight about how im depressed and like all my friends are. she was shocked. lol shes so cute, but total.ly naive. whatever. i finished her beer for her. groos. beer. but whatever. so yea.. illa ctualy remember tonight :)(hopefully) fiirst time in al ong time ill do that. but idk.. yea.. theres no point in this.. i hung out w/ my friends form people to people (student ambassador program last summer to europe) fun to see them all again, but im fat. and ashamed. i keep gaining weight no matter what i do.. and that just pushes me to eat more.. and thevicious cycle onwt leave me alone. my will against suicide is gonna b e taken over my by horrible will to kill this peice of trash (myself) some time or another.. and im scared to death... MLE |
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spud | 03-24-02 9:10pm if you weren't so concerned about your weight, you wouldn't be such a downer all the time. there is a fine line between unwanted by maxim, and unhealthy by decent standards. know that line well. if it becomes unhealthy, time to be worried. if you're not going to be hugh heffner's next girlfriend, BIG DEAL! i hope you figure it out. |