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| Shoe23 (profile) wrote, on 11-27-2003 at 8:10pm | |
| Current mood: Barely.... here Music: Staind - A Flat Subject: am I only a void? |
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| I feel merely as if I am nothing, but yet I find enough of a feeling to hate myself. I tell my eyes to lie, but it is impossible to make them anymore. More empty I feel everyday, only because I make myself that way. I am afraid of every fucking thing. The only person who can truly help me the most, I wont let close. The only person I trust, Has her own life, and better things to worry about....I still live for you both. You keep me alive enough to continue. I'm so pissed off right now and I really don't know why. Sometimes I really wonder why I'm here. I've fucked up so many times. So many nights I wish I didnt remember, That now echo in my head endlessly. I made a list of everything I have done wrong...or fucked up... or that has caused me to be how I currently am... and the only thing that did was consolidate everything into one list for me to stare at. To merely remind me of everything. I don't really know what I'm even supposed to be thinking anymore. Just take a good look at my wrist and you can see my regrets... basically leading me to somewhere I thought I never would end at. ...Found a box of sharp objects, what a beautiful thing... I think I may have hit rock bottom, and all that's left is to crawl underneath the stone and hide before I lose all I still have. |
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i-hate-everything-about-you | 11-27-03 11:47pm I always have time for you.
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Shoe23 | Re:, 11-27-03 11:49pm Thank you Ellen...
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