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| silentcriez (profile) wrote, on 11-27-2003 at 11:25pm | |
| Current mood: ecstatic Music: globes and maps - something corporate Subject: happy thanksgiving |
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| ok so heres the scoop... i am happy me amanda maltz is happy... now when was the last time you heard me say that?? everything is really starting to make sense in my life... i was talking to my grandfather tonite and what he said was really true.. he said "you can go about life likea turtle, and pull your feet and head in your shell and hide from everything and never get hurt, or you can be brave and stick your neck out, and risk getting your head chopped off, but at least your going somewhere." he said "failing isnt the worst, its thae lack of strength to get back up and try again" all of my cousins have been really close to me lately since my mom left.. and its really really helping. and i actually feel like ppl love me.. its like my mom was always trying to tell me i didnt fit in with them, maybe not right out, but like making so i didnt wanna be with them, kinda showing me their faults so that that was all i was able to see, being too young i couldnt fathom my own opinion and i guess it just grew on me. each and everything thing was implanted in my brain. i truly can say that i care about them, i mean some manorisms could piss me off but not enuff for me to block them out of my life. it hurts that it has taken me this long, and this much hurt to realize it, 21 years into her life, i am finally bonding with my cousin janelle... love... i honestly feel loved.... and i am honestly happy ::knocks on wood:: happy thanksgiving everyone, ::smiles big:: goodnight - amanda elizabeth |
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| Anonymous | Hello from sunny Florida, 11-28-03 12:23am Well, I suppose I should be honored that you took time out of your oh-so-tragic-adolescent life to help me "fit in," but contrary to your martyr-esque account, I never wanted to, nor requested your assistance in blending with that disgusting display of self-absorbed, overbearing, insincere, nauseating collection of relatives.
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