| Add Memory | Add To Friends | |
| Aaron (profile) wrote, on 11-28-2003 at 7:06pm | |
| Subject: so you understand what this is...i just wrote a five page private entry...this is the last paragraph in it. |
|
| in that moment in time i fell back into that coma type existance i had been in for so long...and i don't want to come out...ever....i want to hide for eternity....every time i come out of my trance i get fucked over...fucked because i am too gentle...i care too much, i bring too much down on those around me...good bye.....good bye...good bye until i can crawl out of this hole again and brave the tortures of my hell...this doesn't mean i don't love you. this doesn't mean i won't be back for years like the last time. it doesn't mean i won't be back by tomorrow, or in just a few hours...it just means until the one i love...the one i depend on allows me to lean on them again i'll hide...hide like a cowardly little boy...goodbye now....i'd tell you i love you but i know you'd rather not hear it...that you really don't care... i think i'll be okay...i just need to think...some time to think...i feel like i'm going to break down and cry....just give me a minute. |
|
| Post A Comment |
shalee | 11-30-03 10:18pm im so sorry.. i didnt mean.. i dont think you understood what i meant.. i was just saying.. just trying to make them understand.. i never.. ill never do it again.. |
| Aaron | Re:, 12-07-03 6:05am I'm okay...and I beleive, my love, that in the end, we will all be okay...I will be with you forever. I love you. I beleive in you. |