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| xxinterrupted (profile) wrote, on 11-29-2003 at 2:22pm | |
| Current mood: sad Music: p.o.d. - will you Subject: i don't even know anymore.. |
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| so last night jim was like "yeah, i'll call you when i get home." he didn't even fuckin' get home until 1:30 a.m. or so he says and thats why he's calling so late. so i was like okay whatever.. and being that today is our one year anniversary- i figured he'd be like "happy anniversary" or SOMETHING. but of course not. he didn't say shit. a week or so ago we were talking about what we were going to do today and he told me that we were going to the mall, movies, dinner, ect. i kept asking him what we were gonna do today and he was just like "i don't know" "who knows" i'm like okay..? i got really pissed after about 4 minutes, because 9 out of 10- he didn't remember. so i said bye and hung up.. but he didn't call back. so i was just like "fuck it" to myself.. cried for a while. a long while. watched a movie, cried after the movie. did something bad, cried some more. went to sleep at 4:30 or so.. i thought maybe he'd call me back and say something nice, tell me that he didn't forget.. or something.. but no. he didn't. my aunt called at like 9:30 this morning, because i was supposed to go to centry three with her and my gram, but i didn't go. who the fuck wants to go somewhere when their heart has literally been ripped out of them? i feel like shit. i always feel like shit anymore. maybe i'm wrong, maybe he didn't forget.. maybe he'll call me in a little bit and talk to me and say happy anniversary and tell me how much he loves me and everything, but i doubt it. i'm doubting everything anymore. //.jena "your lies leave scars on my wrists" |
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drawingxblackxlines | 11-29-03 3:59pm i feel for you, i really do, men r just big giant rippely penises!! and i love them hahaah i love u more though, everything will turn around, i miss u so damn much happy 1 yr hun! |
candikissez | hey, 11-30-03 9:50pm im really really, reallyy sorry about ur anniversary. I know how guys can get. Don't worry- things will get better. You can IM me anytime you need to talk. My newer screen name is Daliciouz. Good luck hun. |