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| painttheskywithstars (profile) wrote, on 11-30-2003 at 1:28am | |
| Music: Ani DiFranco, The album - So Much Shouting So Much Laughter Subject: Overrated |
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| Work blows, and I smell like a dirty kitchen. My feet are numb. I think maybe I should get some of those old granny therapuetic shoes, cause' the ones I wear for work now, kill. Ohh, I won't really get them. Style over rules future permanent foot damage. On to the important things.. ever since the final collapse of David and I, I've been sort of sour on love and relationships. I don't crave to be in someone else's arms and I don't mind renting movies by myself. Atleast then I can watch mushy, chick flicks, without worrying that he's most likely bored out of his mind. I just don't want it right now. The other day, this guy asked for my number and I gave it to him, he was cute, but I really don't know why I did. I should've told him that when he calls, I won't pick up and I don't plan on giving him a fair chance. I know this may sound mean, but truthfully, after you experience true heartbreak, suffer painful emotional blows from someone who meant the world to you, you just stop caring. Well I did. I was knocked down and torn apart too many times, and now I just want to seperate myself from the whole mushy, i can't breathe without you, love scene. SOMETIMES, though, I will come across certain little things that make me miss having someone. Well, like, for example, do you ever overhear someone on their cellphone, and it's clearly obvious it's their boyfriend/girlfriend cause' they're all "No you say goodbye, no youuu, i love you more, youu" God, that's killer. I mean, if you don't miss having someone when you hear that kind of conversation... you've obviously misplaced your heart. Couples like that are in the best part of their relationship. And at the moment, im sure they truly believe they're completely in love. But eventually those cute "never wanna let you go goodbye's" will turn into meaningless, repetitive farewells... click. You cross over into a world of old coupleness where the pretty flowers stop growing and the fire is stomped by the down pour. Lost in the dark. Well, I'm enjoying the sunlight I've stolen somehow, so I think I'll cling on to it for a little while longer before I go losing myself in the dark again. |
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| Anonymous | Sigur Ros ownz you!, 11-30-03 2:43am "No you say goodbye, no youuu, i love you more, youu" God, that's killer. I mean, if you don't miss having someone when you hear that kind of conversation... you've obviously misplaced your heart"
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mudpiegrl | 11-30-03 5:05pm i have to agree...i hate hearing that because you spend half of the convo saying goodbye...although i admit i have a hard time saying goodbye in person |
catrenegade | 11-30-03 9:59pm julia knows what she's talking about...for once ;) |
painttheskywithstars | 12-01-03 1:36pm Oh yeahhh! lol |
| Anonymous | ahh...let's go, 12-01-03 10:09am it's funny b/c i always told myself that i HATED that muchy crap...but now, all of a sudden, i've become a girly chick and want it. but my heart won't ever let me care enough about someone to do so. or at least i won't be able to tell anyone i care enough.....:( |
painttheskywithstars | Re: ahh...let's go, 12-01-03 1:41pm hey who's journal is this, yours or mine? lol jk Don't worry kid, like i said mushy stuff gets old. Just live your life, and everything will fall into place. No need to be worrying about that crazy shit now. |